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"This desire to look at myself objectively has been the reason I have put a knife to my heart for such a long time. What I need to practise from now on is to stop trapping myself in some formula of, 'This is what I have to be doing,' and to simply acknowledge the fact that I am an independent individual."

thisssss

"I think you should get in the habit of thinking differently."

my new year's resolution

"And I'm so envious of people who think, Who cares if this person doesn't like me, who cares if they think I'm annoying?"

meeeee

" I look like someone of no consequence, an invisible person."

"But the you of the present is looking at your life and past as if you're a failure. When in truth, from the perspective of a younger you, you're the very picture of success."

CRIES

"I hate being full of heaviness and darkness and excess. So here's to thinking more positively!"

awww 🥹 I needed this.

"I was once told that you had to be able to write even when everything was all right, and I wonder if that takes practice as well. I only write when the weather, my body or my mind is dark."

This.

"Me: Do I not know myself very well?
Psychiatrist: I feel like you're not very interested in yourself."

hmmmmm

"I have always wanted to be alone, yet always hated being alone."
"I'm needlessly harsh towards myself, so I need comforting, someone who is on my side.“

AAAAAA

'How lucky it is that I realise this.'

AAAACK thanks for this new perspective

"Just as a light flu can make our whole body hurt, a light depression can make our minds ache all over."

REAAAAAAL

".. i place the marker
in that little girl's hand, help her
write our pain."

THIS FCKING STINGS

"and the one in my head—
the one telling me
this pain
is all i deserve."

Why can I see myself in her thoughts BC SAME

"for the first time
in years, i am not drowning."

🥹

"cry
breathe
go for a walk
acknowledge the feeling"

badly needed

"i know. i just wish
i felt more
than hurt."

stopPPPP

"fine. anxious.

can you explain why?

no."

CLOCK IT

"create my own illusion,
that someone is
holding me
as i cry."

FELT

"pretty sure avoidance
is an inherited trait."

hmmm

I am so back 😎

"because all i do is try and try to be a perfect daughter and sister and friend and student and person but it doesn't make me any less scared of living. because i would be happier without me."

IT JUST STARTED PLS