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“she’d understood even then that he was deeply, magnetically pathetic.”

“On Wednesday, I grew older. I added another year.” love reading this when tomorrow, which is a Wednesday, is also my birthday, and thus, a day I will also grow older by adding another year.

“Even though I’d been mad, I now felt the surprising urge to defend him, or to at least complicate things.”

“‘He really likes me’, I thought, but I didn’t feel what I expected, the initial giddy thrill. Instead, there was fright, and I knew then that I stood on the edge of an unfamiliar precipice.”

what hunger.

can’t a girl just eat some raw meat in peace?

“…I saw my fat fuck of a self. I saw my patients at the hospital seeing me, hating me and loving me, a hundred times mistaking me, not one ever once understanding who I really am. I saw little white girls seeing me and thinking I was dumb. I saw my father the week before he died swaddling me in a baby blanket and I saw my mother seeing me graduate from nursing school and I burned with love.”

the edward breakup lowkey re-traumatizing me

“‘how do we move through all this beauty without destroying it?’”