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sucks

i ask questions out of nervousness. dismayed. and ankles? are they very important?

From now on I want more than understanding: I want superunderstanding, I humbly beg that this gift be given me. I want to understand understanding itself. I want to reach the most intimate secret of whatever exists. I'm in full communion with the world.

i want so badly to be commonplace and a little vulgar and say: hope is the last to die.

To have inside me the opposite of what I am is in essence indispensible: I won't give up my struggle and my indecision and the failure-for I'm a great failure — failure serves as the foundation of my existence. If I were a winner? I'd die of boredom. "Getting" isn't my strong point. I nourish myself with what's left over of me and it's very little. There is left over however a certain secret silence.