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paper copy reread !!
insane this is abt to be solidified as my fav book

yapayaoyap fyodor yap

the memoirs of a dreamer

yayy im back on this app

“Impatient with the present, hostile to the past and deprived of a future, we really did then resemble those who justice it human hatred has forced to live behind bars.”

boring setting and bg info hopefully over by now ..

uhoh

camus lets goo

going so slow now cause of sch smh
but drammaaa

REACHED PART II YAY

omg???? grushenka and katerina in the same place??? grushenka so do wtv i want i love it

angel alyosha mhm

i thought fyodor actually died but now ig mitya is not gonna be the murderer cause thats too obvious surely

notes

telling lies (especially to yourself) —> expecting lies from others —> losing respect for others —> losing the ability to love others

zosima’s belief that people are good, therefore focusing on the good that individuals can do to each other / ivan’s belief that people are inherently bad, therefore focusing on how to prevent evil between individuals
+ ivan arguing for religious society as an atheist

ugh dmitri FINALLY shows up in the chapter after i decide to stop reading

LETS GOO
/
ivan & fyodor .. no way he isn’t the murderer tbh
“…having even at the age of 10 perceived that they were growing up in someone else’s family and at the mercy of someone else’s good graces…”

age gap is rlly icking me out i dont like adult normal life romance ew

the brothers karamazov in april trust

wth???? mizuno is mental

hmm

To be sure, my solution is not the ideal. But when you don’t like your own life, when you know that
you must change lives, you don’t have any choice, do you?

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Hence I am not worried about my safety, but about myself and my presence of mind I am also eager to block the door of the closed little universe of which I am the king, the pope, and the judge.

Besides, one doesn’t practice his profession, one
breathes it constantly

/

For a long time I had lived in the illusion of a general
agreement, whereas, from all sides, judgments, arrows, mockeries rained upon me, inattentive
and smiling. The day I was alerted I became lucid; I received all the wounds at the same time and
lost my strength all at once. The whole universe then began to laugh at me.

A totally insignificant story, in your opinion? Probably. Still it took me some time to forget it, and that’s what counts.

/

I’ll tell you a big secret, mon cher. Don’t wait for
the Last Judgment. It takes place every day.

this is sending me into psychosis conceptually

mm idk abt the intro

‘She dressed the bloodied little body in the gown she’d just made, and held the whimpering scrap in her hands. For god’s sake don’t die, she muttered in a thin voice, over and over like a mantra.’

“I have to admit it humbly, mon cher compatriote, I was always bursting with vanity. I, I, I is the refrain of my whole life, which could be heard in everything I said.”