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I really like the writing of this so far. I like how extensional ideas aren’t buried in a spiral of complexity like C.S Lewis’s writing (No hate on my man Lewis though love him.) I feel like Vonnegut is standing outside of humanity, observing it and shrugging sadly at it. But the melancholic tone is hidden in humor. Really cool. Im still thinking about the chrono-synclastic infundibulum phenomenon.

Wowww this book is insanely good. It hurts to read, though. I’m uncomfortable with how much I recognize myself in Esther. It feels invasive, like reading an alternate version of my mind that never tried to heal. Some of the thought patterns, decisions, and experiences are painfully specific. This is going to be one of those books I think about for months after finishing it. I really want a happy ending for her.

I love “chrono-synclastic infundibulum.” I think about this a lot. Like the idea of multiple “rights” and how each “right” can’t recognize the other one as “truth/right”. So a place exists where people could deeply understand drastic differences in viewpoints to their core. How cool?! Im happy it doesn’t exist though. So many beautiful people and each one contains a world I can’t fully enter.

There are so many actions and thought processes that humans do that are never recognized as influenced. Zero reflection done on how deeply they’ve been soaked in evil. Like a lab-grown diamond beginning from a tiny slice of an pre-existing diamond, pressed and pressurized until it’s made into the full version of itself. Sin can grow from the smallest seed of corruption and we can ignore it so easily. Why?

So far: It shows you evil thinking out loud. He causally unravels the human soul and forces you to recognize yourself in places you didn’t expect. The writing itself is incredibly precise and he takes ideas that could feel overly academic like temptation, pride, grace, spiritual warfare, etc and turns them into something intimate. You laugh, and then a second later you realize why it’s unsettling.