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Ch 6

Ch 2

“Magick, the most mysterious and capricious of disciplines, admired for its power, derided for its frivolity, is in brief the act of telling lies about the world.”

“Hell’s lonely,” said Peter. “You’ll want company.”
“Hell is other people, I’ve heard.”

Slow going…stream of consciousness narrative. Takes a good minute to absorb but very engaging.

“He was simply born brilliant, all that knowledge poured by gods without spillage into his brain.”

“Human minds were fallible, but hers less than most, and hers was now the only mind she could trust.”

If it were possible, I would have given myself in place of Karen. At least, I think I would have. If it were possible. If it were possible Karen would call me on a weekend and our kids would visit. We would celebrate birthdays and graduations and see each other grow old.”

It took twenty years to forgive myself. Well, that is not exactly true, either—to almost forgive myself. If it had been possible, I would have killed them. I would still kill them, if it were possible.”

I wasn’t mad at the speakers at her funeral, I was mad at me. I should have stopped them even if I couldn’t stop them. Her killers. I should have killed them. Karen was not to be hurt…not on my watch.”

Her death belongs to her: the consequence belongs to me and to the men who killed her. And to me because I couldn’t stop them. I didn’t stop them. That was my issue with it all and I felt like I failed her. I felt I should have stopped it. I felt I abandoned her. None of this was logical. It was just true.”

From page 17: “It is important to remember the tragedy of her death belongs to her. Not entirely true, perhaps; because, you see, I have often said that to dismiss my own feelings about it. “The tragedy belongs to her”—as if I had no right to view it as my tragedy. But it belongs to me too.”

From page 16: “This had been the dynamic of our childhood together. I looked after my little sister. There was no one closer to me. Mess with her, you were messing with me!”