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"How sinister it is to relive your life backward. To see things you hadn't at the time. To realize the horrible significance of events you had no idea were playing out around you."
"But knowing the future is worse than not knowing. Isn't it?"
"What do you say to somebody when you know they will be your last words to them? Avoiding pain is priceless to some."

";there was never enough time with the people who mattered."

"mom always said people can surprise you."

"Camila: I think you have to have faith in people before they earn it. Otherwise it's not faith, right?"

"That was how I learned that the world changes between heart beats; that life is never an absolute, but always a wager."

"I thought of how his heart must have caught when he lost his footing, I wondered if the last thing he saw was his own sky."

(IYKYK)

“Do you know what it’s like to give your whole self to a person, and your whole heart to boot, until you’ve got nothing left to give - and then realize that it still isn’t what they need?”

“I can see myself now, she said. And I can see what I want to be, ten years from now. But I don’t understand how I’m going to get from here to there. And he jumped off his bunk and started pounding at the bars of the cell, screaming to attract the attention of an officer and do for his friend what he had not done for Emily.

“They always call depression the blues, but I would have been happy to waken to a periwinkle outlook. Depression to me is urine yellow. Washed out, exhausted miles of weak piss.”

“Problems always start long before you really, really see them.”

“You don’t know what goes on in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a persons life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately; you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life.”

“Normally, when a person has a stellar image, another person’s waiting in the wings to tear them apart. They’re waiting for that one fatal flaw to expose itself.”

“But you can’t get away from yourself. You can’t decide not to see yourself anymore. You can’t decide to turn off the noise in your head.”

“I guess that’s the point of it all. No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people. Oftentimes, we have no clue. Yet we push it just the same.”

“Right then, in that office, with the realization that no one knew the truth about my life, my thoughts about the world were shaken.”

“Was I disappointed when you said good-bye to me? Not much. It’s hard to be disappointed when what you expected turns out to be true.”

“But it’s more than just a scratch. It’s a punch in the stomach and a slap in the face. It’s a knife in my back because you would rather believe some made-up rumor than what you knew to be true.”

“Here’s a tip. If you touch a girl, even as a joke, and she pushes you off, leave . . . Her . . . Alone. Don’t touch her. Anywhere! Just stop. Your touch does nothing but sicken her”

But it’s never just one moment. It’s a series of them. And your life can branch out from each one in a thousand different ways. Maybe there’s a version of your life for all the choices you make and all the choices you don’t.

Sometimes you have to leave the people who love you the most, he said.

Maybe growing up means disappointing the people we love.

Power isn’t doing something to someone who’s weaker than you. It’s having the strength to do something terrible, and choosing not to.

I don’t know what it is about death that makes it so hard. I suppose it’s the one sided communication; the fact that we never get to ask our loved one if she suffered, if she is happy wherever she is now... if she is somewhere. It’s the question mark that comes with death that we can’t face, not the period.

I think about being the kind of person who stands up for what she believes in, instead of denying what’s right before her eyes.

I never said I do not remember. I said I prefer to forget.

Hunger, she often tells me, has nothing to do with the belly and everything to do with the mind.

You save yourself or you remain unsaved.