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oh & real quick, why did zoe & owen not come back ? is the game trying to speed things along by removing npcs and creating less variables and less distractions so they get to the end faster ?

still don’t know where i’m at but i know im over 50%. but ok so does asher know that once they find all 3 keys & reach the lower levels that the game will be complete / end and levi will leave ? is that why he said they’re running out of time ? & is that why he keeps insisting on leaving the others ? bc the others move the progress along & he doesn’t want that bc he doesn’t want levi to leave ?

okok idk where i am in the book bc im reading on my kindle& i have page numbers turned off. i remember being over 30% but i know im before 50% or maybe getting close. i dont wanna know where im at on the book bc i dont want to know when the climax is going to be but holy fucking shit bro i knew it. i knew asher remembered& omfg i’m obsessed w how obsessed he is. he’s LONGING for levi’s approval & im squealing

crying bc i haven’t felt this much like myself in so long. i truly don’t know who i am without this book and my life doesn’t feel real and hasn’t for so long and this book makes me feel. just feel. i’m always numb and impassive and grey but having any emotion at all feels so strange and i don’t know what to do with it now that it’s here again

starting another reread. put off on rereading bc this book breaks me & it’s the only thing that got me through last year alive but i’m going to fucking shatter when i read it again but i miss it so desperately i don’t know who i am without this book and i seriously can’t function and im going to be sick and i can’t do it

how the fuck am i supposed to reread this knowing what coach did in eli & jules book jesus fuck

AGAIN !!! masochist bc i love these boys and their pain and i feel safe when i get to live in their lives

omg PLS PLS we have to get matteo & ryan’s story OMFG all my babies are here in this book NO FUCKING WAY

NO FUCKING WAY MATTEO VIERI STFUOMFG SO MANY CAMEOS OMG

DIRTY HIT MAKES ITS RETURN BBY BRENDON IS HERE !!!

FUCK

ok fine i’m actually glad ryan interrupted them so that everything could happen once julian cal clean about the truth. feel like that for sure had to happen first but ryan still made me lose it mind for a sec

OH SHIT MAN I DONT THINK YOU MEANT TO SAY THAT

RYAN YOU BASTARD I WAS FINALLY ABOUT TO GET MY MOMENT OMFG

ELI IS ONLY 5’9 ?????!??! bro wut

yall don’t even know how bad i want to check the trigger warnings (which i never do bc every bad thing in the trigger warnings has probably already happened to me in some extend & i choose to ignore it anyway bc im a masochist) bc i desperately want to know wtf is going on w julian but i also know i cant spoil it but its 4am & i need to sleep but i need to know wtf is going on before i throw up

i already feel like im going to throw up

yea i forgot how much this broke me the first time i read it and how close to home it hits

reread

AGAIN bc i can’t get enough

rereading bc i remember being obsessed with

just now finished conquest & im gonna throw up before i even make it through the first page

i knew it

oh fuck is the tape accidentally gonna get released and are they gonna get outed