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Well, it's going as expected. Picture perfect never is.

I feel like I'm gonna need to take notes of all the terms I'm reading about 🧐

Why am I here? Who knows. I honestly thought it'll be worse. Oh well.

I am not doing fine, but also I love fireworks and found families and fake blondes ♡

Nobody move or say a word. You do not know how excited I am about this and how busy my week looks so I'll be happily struggling to get through it all. Nora, if Jean doesn't get at least 2 happy scenes I'll be at your new doorstep, probably to beg, but yk. Yep. Bye.

I don't want to talk about it. I am obsessed with this stuff now I guess. SUE ME!

I wasn't sure I wanted to keep going with the series cause I am full on m-m sports romance brainrot and feel like I need to stop before I start losing braincells, but I love these two so much I needed to read this one.

Ilya Rozanov may be one of my fav characters ever, and if that doesn't say worrysome things about me, idk what will. But he's the best middle aged russian man. So yep, here we are.

Is this redemption? Or enough of it? I am starting to feel myself slipping and wanting to forgive. Never forget. But forgive is possible ig.

The thing is, I understand this guy. I really do. And I hate that they both had to go through so much. And I also know that they have a relationship that only them both could understand. And I love that for them. Even if it makes life hard for them when dealing with the world.

I am feeling feelings. And I am struggling with the feelings I am feeling. Just don't make me feel this stuff.

Everyone is fucking lying to themselves in this book, ffs. Just admit your feelings. And your murderous intent. And your insecurities. And your problematic relationships. Each of you.

I cannot deal. Give me a break. And get your goddamned heart surgery, you silly little Sherlock man.