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“Because she hadn’t asked, and Declan never gave away as truth unless it was taken from his cold, balled hands. Because the safest shape was being both unknown and unchanging.”

“All around us the world is falling asleep, but no one’s looking out their window anymore to mark it. Dreamers are dying… What is a dream without its dreamer? It’s an animal in a room without air. It’s man on a dead planet. It’s religion without a god. They sleep without us because they must.”

“There was only the quiet that came after all those things. There was only the quiet that came when you were the only one left.”

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“It was possible that no two students at Aglionby had ever come away with such a thorough understanding of Latin (or, possibly, of each other).”

“Of course Sascha smelled of him—she was his.”

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“She’d been guilty of participating in her own deception.”

“He might not be able to read minds but he could read bodies and Sacha’s was screaming for his.”

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“And it was at the institute that Enayat met Saad and lost him. It was the institute that had decided to increase her salary by 7 per cent, an increase that would have begun at the end of the same January in which she killed herself.”

“All these women here, the precise whens and whys of each hair-cutting as they stand or sit before their mirrors, is beyond the reach of my imagination – all of them recognise this moment, even if they do not tell us so.”

“The usual – indeed, the clichéd – way of describing empathy as ‘putting yourself in another’s place’ seems to me quite wrong. Empathising involves, rather, putting another in yourself, becoming another person’s habitat, as it were, but without dissolving the person, without digesting the person.”

“To trace someone does not mean filling all the gaps or searching out every fact in the quest to document it. It is to take a journey towards someone who cannot speak for themselves. It is a dialogue that is perforce one-sided.”

“Maybe that’s what happened. That Enayat went to war for her individuality and waited for victory in the form of al-Qawmiyya’s acceptance: that is, victory granted by the very society against which she fought.”

“Silence is a stone, locked down without windows or doors, its still air stirred to a storm by the cry for help which catches in our throats, by the response to that cry which catches in the throats of our loved ones, by words half heard, half made, dismembered, incomplete and formless, by the cries of wounded animals, dying in their lairs and burrows, cries that no one hears, or would understand if they did.”

“I was here. The sentence belongs to Enayat. It is in her novel and in her journals, too, in the moments when she doubts her existence will leave any trace at all. As though Enayat, who had died before I was born, was introducing to me a part of my own life, forcing me to reconsider my relationship with the place in which Enayat remained invisible.”

“‘The windows were flung open to a bracing new breeze, to fresh scents, to cries of the crowd and revolution, to a literature with claws that tore Love and Evil and Life into ribbons and scratched the face of Man the Provider, man who denies woman her freedom.’”

“My darling son, Abbas, farewell. I do love you, it’s just that life is unbearable. Forgive me.”

“But Enayat’s voice, the whisper that never speaks to the masses, the hesitant, melancholy, unconfident murmur, like weeping heard on the other side of a wall, this voice which seems to have come adrift from poetry and which poetry alone might have been able to rescue…”

“It feels as though the author has begun her journey with the whisper of an inner voice, like someone peering through the window of her bedroom at the bleak emptiness of the streets outside, and that she has retained this voice throughout, for all that it is shaped and changed by experience and engagement with other people, only for it to suddenly vanish, its place taken by something sonorous and depersonalised.”

“Around me, the living were sleeping and waking, eating and bickering and breeding. It was somehow ugly to witness, painful even, a scene better not seen at all, yet at the same time, it offered powerful evidence of a will to live, of their resolve.”

“I suppose they will come for him early in the morning, perhaps just before dawn, so that the last thing Giovanni will ever see will be that grey, lightless sky over Paris, beneath which we stumbled homeward together so many desperate and drunken mornings.”