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"You might see nothing in him. He is never more present in my work than when no image of him is there. He is a suggestion, as I have said, of a new manner. I find him in the curves of certain lines, in the loveliness and subtleties of certain colours.
Don't take away from me the one who gives my art whatever charm it possesses. "

UGHHH THE OBSESSION

"Don't ever forget that your life was so shamefully dear to you that you turned to your most bitter enemy rather than lose it."

Is Kaiki becoming one of my faves? Yeah.

I was intentionally talking big because I figured Senjogahara hated that kind of braggadocio more than anything. When I don't have a handle on the conversation, my first move is to say and do whatever I think will displease my interlocutor. I feel more comfortable being hated than liked —if anything lessee, maybe it's because being liked equals being faked lightly, while being hated means you're taken seriously.

"My name is Suzuki. Suzuki, written with the characters for 'bell' and 'tree.' As in, doesn't ring a 'bell' and you're barking up the wrong 'tree.' I'm terribly sorry, but I think you may have the wrong number."
"Sure, Suzuki then, whatever." She just fucking played along. "And I won't be Senjogahara, you can call me Senshogahara."

I missed Kaiki 😭😭

It kinda feels like everyone's abandoning me. Of course, that wasn't the truth. I wasn't moving forward. I knew there were things I needed to do, but I wasn't moving my own life forward because I was so preoccupied with other's lives. Like everything we worked together to gloss over and deal with, all the little things we've agreed to ignore, are being pored over and examined with a finetoothed combed.

"Do you really think the world is going to allow something that convenient? What a ridiculous happy end. Nearly hypocritical. I'll admit there are red lies and white lies in the world. But you see, there's no such thing as an acceptable lie. Not in the face of the truth, of the rules. That child is telling a lie by existing."

😭😭😭😭

"While it may seem uninhibited and respectable to say 'Who cares what anyone thinks about me' and 'I dont mind what anyone thinks of me,' what you are really saying is no different from 'I'm going to fool everyone". Becoming a god is fine. It's tricking people into thinking you are a god —that's a problem."

"What about you, kind monster sir? Do you have any idea... Do you have any I-dea?"

"Emphasize it as you might, that's not a very good pun or play on words."

"Was the last time we talked at this much length actually 'Nise' ? That would be quite a whole ago."
"Well, Hanekawa, Kanbaru and Sengoku did organize coups d'état and hijack your role as a narrator"
"Chronologically, it wouldn't make sense for us to know about Kanbaru and Sengoku."
"I never thought Sengoku would turn out that way. How frightening."
"Stop it, it'd cause a time paradox if I knew about that now."

"Of course, I'll get rid of his girlfriend, sure... But in terms of a love that's never fulfilled, isn't it a lot more romantic if Big Brother Koyomi dies? Mostly, though, i don't want to cause him any more trouble."
"... So that's how crazy you are," the Serpent says softly." You're hopeless. I judged wrong, and you are wrong in the head. You can't be saved. By anyone. "
" Can't help it. "

"Still, i can't believe i was able to forget that...So did i erase the memories because they were inconvenient?"
"You think you can do something that convenient? You're not a certain someone."
A certain someone? Who could that be.

HANEKAWA KEEPS HAUNTING THE NARRATIVE SOMEHOW

"i think being in love with someone is a very wonderful thing, a feeling like that's all you need in life. You might find yourself wanting to slump over on the ground, but even so, you can keep pushing yourself if you love someone. It's like you can smile even when you want to cry, which is why Nadeko fell in love with Big Brother, maybe just to feel more stable by being in love."

"Are you playing it safe, with a loved that will never be requited?"
"..."
"Because if you're in love with someone, you don't have to fall in love with anyone else. It's so easy to fall in love with someone who's never going to reject you."

From inside Nadeko's desk appeared a white snake. It crawls, baring its fangs. Nadeko sits down like nothing happened and starts preparing for the quiz —then again, Nadeko might not have screamed even if it were the first time. After all, this class is already being constricted by something like a snake. i'm not going to scream just because a snake wraps itself a around Nadeko—so long as it doesnt bite her.

All too often a compliment makes someone feel bad, not because they didn't want a pat on the back, they wanted one for something else. But even if our view of ourselves doesn't totally jibe with the other way people see us, that doesn't mean that one or the other is correct. If a false assumption goes unchallenged, does that make it true? The fact is there's no such thing as truth to being with.

I aspired to be a team player, but speaking as an expert team player, I aspired go play like you, taking five opponents all by yourself. To be like you: to act freely, regardless of anyone's opinion undaunted by their stares. Everyone longs for an existence different from their own. We'll even covet unhappiness, if it belongs to someone else.
Now that she was gone I realized I hadn't hated her. I envied her.