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this is fanfiction for lana del rey fans who only know of plath through that one fuckass song of hers. god help me.

after a long hiatus, WE ARE SO BACK

did nobody edit this book 😭 two different name spellings ON THE SAME PAGE there’s no way dude

there’s being close to your mom and there’s juliet telling her mom she does cam work. like why.

jesus fucking christ this book is so dreadful it made me open the app for the first time in months just to convey this message

alexa play class of 2013 by mitski

i do not like this man

oh my fucking god 😀😀😀

“i know that if i really had any talent i would have done something with my life by now - i don’t delude myself about that. if i tried i’m sure i would fail and that’s why i’ve never tried” i’m going to throw up?????

i’m actually ENJOYING a sally rooney?????? what is happening to the world

doing the most for this essay

it’s my bell jariversary let me have this ok

i simply do not have the energy to read a book with 30+ page long chapters. will return to it some other time

“lines that jar” such a good essay wow if you had to read one thing from this book make it this one

“i started to wonder if it had been unfair of me to write off my religion because of how some of its followers, including my own parents, had made me feel. i now saw that i could carve out a place for myself that provided me with the spiritual nourishment i needed to weather life’s hurdles”
this is like therapy for me

“sometimes it’s easier to not fight, to accept the isolation of being unseen as a safe space”

god

“quite often during the past several years i have felt myself a sleepwalker, moving through the world unconscious of the moment’s high issues, oblivious to its data, alert only to the stuff of bad dreams,”
what if this was my breaking point

(reading for class) i can’t even begin to describe how much i LOATHE ww ii novels 😀

oh we are so back (my book was recovering from water damage 3)

“if the moon smiled, she would resemble you […]
both of you are great light borrowers”
she was the blueprint for misery business and better than revenge

cannot believe i’m reading this for class i’m so happy

god that was devastating

oh this book is my trauma materialized

“how our hands hurt us, then give us
the world. how you can love the world
until there’s nothing left to love
but yourself.”

OCEAN VUONG ARE YOU INSANE WHY WOULD YOU WRITE THIS

“things can’t go on for ever, she thought. things pass, things change, she thought, looking up at the ceiling. and where are we going? where? where?…”

coming back to this book after a 3(?) month hiatus. i love you miss woolf

i’m not dead, i’m just in the worst reading slump of my life 😀

aaaaaand that’s the first essay to make me violently sob 😀 (the same story about my mom by lynn steger strong)

the essay by melissa febos felt like a very subtle advertisement for her books. “here’s everything i wanted to tell my mother that i wrote about in my book and sent to her but i won’t tell you what it is i’ll just tell you her reaction” 🧍‍♀️

“what will happen is already happening”