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For a memory is just a sketch a mind makes of one's experiences, imperfect and interpretive; yet what my mind made, from that moment on, was per-fect, absolute, and endless.

‘Nothing in the world is hidden forever’ — Wilkie Collins, No Name.

‘I do not believe you need to do more exercise. It is a matter of having purpose, less apathy. Why not steal a fish from the market to make you bolder? It need not be the biggest fish, but it must not be the smallest either.'
"Why do I need to be bolder?'
'That is for you to answer."

"Friendship is a slow ripening fruit”
'It's a rather unpleasant image. Fruit either withers or goes bad in the end.'

Guilt is one burden human beings can't bear alone. As soon as a crime is committed, there is a telephone call, or a confession to strangers.

It's a flirtation with justice.

Helplessness, however, will destroy you.
It is a poison. We ingest it unknowingly, and it eats at us inside; it clouds our souls; it breaks our hearts bit by bit, the cracks so tiny we don't understand why we hurt. Perhaps we see the signs —we cry when we shouldn't, we cannot focus on the things we love-but we shrug them off and keep going, because our wounds are invisible. We're dying in silence. -p.272

"I think I got caught up in this myth,"
"What myth?"
"That you have to wait to be some ideal version of yourself before you go after what you want. Like growth can't happen alongside it, or even because of it. I guess I felt like we needed to wait until conditions were perfect— for both of us—to pursue anything. But I'm realizing the whole point is that the conditions improve when we're together." -p. 158

"Life is boring and mundane until it's not," - p. 154

I had been unfairly resentful toward David to cope with the ferocity of my own feelings, confused and frustrated with not knowing what was next for us. But the reality was I had done something questionable. -p.137

It seems dramatic, because I know I'll be okay, and no one's dead. I know what that feels like, the permanence of it, and it's incomparable-yet the ache of this feeling is the same. - p.149

P.128*

"I go in between hating you and missing you. All. The.
Time," she says. -p.133

I don't think of myself as a chaotic person. I value stability, which means maintaining some level of power over my life and the decisions I make. I do what I can to case uncertainty. -p.87

End things, make a change, exit my comfort zone as it became my discomfort zone.
Being with her was sensible until it wasn't. -p.87

“The saddest thing that could happen to me already did. No need to cry until the next saddest thing happens.” -p53

I don’t say “apologise for my poor emotional regulation skills.”-p58

My friend with kind smiles and soft features and good advice that doesn’t even annoy me. Who does hide how he feels, who values this, our friendship. - p67

“Stop intellectualizing your feelings. It won’t help you.” - p.41

"I think the hope is that over time, you get to know someone, and you don't put them on a pedestal anymore," Jordan reasons. "And once they're off that pedestal, if you still want them, then you know it's more than a crush. Regardless of gender." - p42