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"I think I got caught up in this myth,"
"What myth?"
"That you have to wait to be some ideal version of yourself before you go after what you want. Like growth can't happen alongside it, or even because of it. I guess I felt like we needed to wait until conditions were perfect— for both of us—to pursue anything. But I'm realizing the whole point is that the conditions improve when we're together." -p. 158

"Life is boring and mundane until it's not," - p. 154

I had been unfairly resentful toward David to cope with the ferocity of my own feelings, confused and frustrated with not knowing what was next for us. But the reality was I had done something questionable. -p.137

It seems dramatic, because I know I'll be okay, and no one's dead. I know what that feels like, the permanence of it, and it's incomparable-yet the ache of this feeling is the same. - p.149

P.128*

"I go in between hating you and missing you. All. The.
Time," she says. -p.133

I don't think of myself as a chaotic person. I value stability, which means maintaining some level of power over my life and the decisions I make. I do what I can to case uncertainty. -p.87

End things, make a change, exit my comfort zone as it became my discomfort zone.
Being with her was sensible until it wasn't. -p.87

“The saddest thing that could happen to me already did. No need to cry until the next saddest thing happens.” -p53

I don’t say “apologise for my poor emotional regulation skills.”-p58

My friend with kind smiles and soft features and good advice that doesn’t even annoy me. Who does hide how he feels, who values this, our friendship. - p67

“Stop intellectualizing your feelings. It won’t help you.” - p.41

"I think the hope is that over time, you get to know someone, and you don't put them on a pedestal anymore," Jordan reasons. "And once they're off that pedestal, if you still want them, then you know it's more than a crush. Regardless of gender." - p42

I’ve always considered writing a solitary act. But now, my interest in David is coinciding with my desire to try something new, to feel more secure in my place in the world.

Wanting men has never come naturally to me. Finding them attractive, yes. Passively. But I think I feel, like, active desire right now. I’ve never felt that for a man before. I’m so thrown of by it. - p32

“It’s okay to be into him. It’s also okay to want someone and to be thrown off by it. - p33

Someday I’d like to be given credit for all the times I have not said something that I could have said.

Because one of life’s frustrations is that sometimes, it’s best to say nothing.

‘But children veer out from their parents like so many explorers in the wilderness.’

‘whenever my mother kept him waiting he would frown down at it and give it a tap.
But when I was a little girl, I imagined he was trying to time move faster-to bring mother before us instantly,’

‘But children veer out from their parents like so many explorers in the wilderness.’

‘whenever my mother kept him waiting he would frown down at it and give it a tap.
But when I was a little girl, I imagined he was trying to time move faster-to bring mother before us instantly,’