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His thoughts swam between us, hidden under rocks, disappearing in weeds, and I was fishing for them, dangling my own words like baits and lures.

“Her clothes were full of safety pins and hidden tears”

“How entirely undemanding of yourself it was to believe that everything happened to you. And everything was about you. And that your feelings were the only ones that mattered. Worse yet, to afford yourself the role of the victim always - regardless of how grotesquely it required you to twist reality - so you never had to look in the mirror and admit you were the perpetrator.”

—that Joan did not know why everyone was so goddamn happy all the time until she met her.

The surrender had not always been easy—-it had shocked Joan just how much physical pain there was in loving someone like this.

“Its hard to pick up the phone sometimes when I’m mad. And that doest come from nowhere - I got it from her.”

Im a mom but im not sure im on Barbara’s side —- or am I judgmental???

The world had decided that to be fallible was weak. But we are all fallible. The strong ones are the ones who accept it.

“Admitting you were afraid always took more guts than pretending you weren’t. Being willing to make a mistake got you further than never trying.”

All Joan could think was that it was now just two people cutting off parts of themselves to make themselves fit together. - Joan on marriage

“Bravery is being unafraid of something other people are afraid of. Courage is being afraid, but strong enough to do it anyway.”

Joan found a familiar peace in going unnoticed

“We need to be brave enough to sit with the madness, to hold it. Instead of trying to lock it up.”

“One if the hardest thing to admit is we warent loved when we needed it most. Its a terrible feeling, the pain of not being loved.”

Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways.

“Feelings are like visitors, they come and they go. And sometimes they come uninvited”

So what happened to Eden!! This book keeps me on my toes…