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indecision kills 😞

i haven't read fantasy in so long but my god i'm hooked

my boyfriend cried after reading this so we'll see how it goes

OH GOD...

want to cry a bit i love you miss lucy. i'm going to Cry

i'm looking for wintry book recommendations (or just general book recs)... i'd love to cuddle up with a book for the holidays and i just can't decide what to get to on my to-read list

"You believe in god? he asks.

Oh, says Peter. I'm not sure, I don't know. I suppose I would say, I try to.

Ivan looks back at him calmly, somehow wisely. Same, he says. That I try to. Although it doesn't work, but I do my best.

In his chest a sweet stirring pain like a hand catching holding tight.

Mm, he says. Me too."

"Is that the sum total of your gender identity, she said, you're just desperate for everyone to respect you? He said he would have to think about it. Then added: I mean, maybe."

i have spent half of this reading experience shaking my head at peter POVs so everyone knows i disagree

"Grateful that his losses have as yet gone only so far and no further. That God in his unknowable wisdom and mercy has left him this much. The cool touch of her hand at his face. The flash of chewing gum, the black tights. His mother, his brother, safe and well. Books he hasn't read yet. Opening theme of the Concerto No. 24. Can he imagine anything less like himself? And yet here he is."

enjoying this strange little book so far... reading it is like wandering a busy open-air marketplace and feeling surrounded and very alone at the same time

okay i just cried in a cafe. two tears...

oomf said this book was like a very extended game of "we don't judge we listen" and i can say that is Very Very Accurate i'm gagged

this is so trite i’m banging my head into the table with both of the perspectives pleasepleaseplease don’t prove i’m right (it’s bleak)

“We’re not earthly?” he asked. “Me and the girls?”
“The girls and I,” she corrected. “No. You’re ethereal. My intangible everything.”
The statement seemed both incredibly romantic and unbearably sad.”

JAW DROPPED

very liar game coded i'm having fun

let’s all KISS MARGARET ON THE FOREHEAD

“It’s a strange feeling to have as a kid, like you’re responsible for your parents’ happiness,” she’d said to him, surprising herself with how frankly she was able to describe the way it felt to be the daughter of her parents. He’d been an attentive audience. “Not that you’re the cause of it, but instead that there’s some obligation on your part to ensure it."

“I knew I was cheating on my husband for the right reasons (having a lover makes me even more inaccessible and mysterious).”

WOMEN IN MALE DOMINATED FIELDS

“It’s important that he ask himself: How could he have reduced his own wife to the rank of a vulgar clementine? Why not a banana?”

this diva is so unwell it's incredible

“I send him songs to listen to, and he listens to them. He quotes lines from them back to me when we’re talking about other things. He tells me he has emotional motion sickness when reading the federal budget.”

#needthat expeditiously

“Much like when I lost a tennis match (or, indeed, any game I played as a child), I totally could have won if I’d tried.”

“I want to die but, devastatingly, this does not occur. I am very much alive, and I am sitting on a rolling chair.”

i love reading about girlfailures against capitalism

peter POVs make me wildly depressed

“Is it possible we could develop an alternative model of loving each other? I’m not drunk. Please write back. I love you.”

friendship in the center of it all #tears

“You can love more than one person, she said.
That’s arguable.
Why is it any different from having more than one friend? You’re friends with me and you also have other friends, does that mean you don’t really value me?
I don’t have other friends, I said.”

ready to have the trajectory of my life shifted once again

OH MY GOD WHAT

i mean girl i guess

“Usually though, they just held each other and slept. It was simple that way. Just two half-decent men sharing a blanket.”