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“after you died, i couldn’t hold a funeral so these eyes that once beheld you became a shrine…these lungs that once inhaled your breath became a shrine.”

in some of my international politics and economic classes at university there would be a vague mentioning of south korea and its “success of becoming a democratic country” but never once touched on the brutality of the Gwangju Uprising. devastating

“hm i’ve been reading heavy books, let’s look at my sapphic book shelf. oh ! i’ve been wanting to read this one, lemme grab it from the library”

*book opens on her being abused by her mother*

damn. another one. buckles up

“it’s obvious to her that i, like a weed, would survive anywhere. but her helpless boyfriend wouldn’t make it without her posthumous help. that was my mother entirely. she chose men, and not me.”

where’s the support group for lesbians with *male-centered mothers that oksana and i desperately need.


*this phrase doesn’t even begin to expand on the pain being raised like this has on a lesbian child

i must’ve hallucinated and channeled Louise Erdrich during said hallucination bc many of the books she has referenced throughout reflect books i’ve either just read or are about to

the first instance was of the “almanac of the dead” which i recently added to my ‘to read’ and the last “drive your plow over the bones of the dead” ??? girl what ! absolutely validating my choices, bless you

bruh book two is horny as hell o.o

the Corny Factor has amped up for book two