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i’m consuming too many pieces of media right now where the old man i’ve just gotten attached to is about to die and my heart will be ripped into a million pieces as a result. shrinking. this book. probably the pitt at some point idfk. LIKE.

oh HELL yeah this is lesbian-childhood-friends to homoerotic-tension-to-enemies-to-lovers at its finest

everybody better start being nicer to my boys. or else.

ah yes. the pivotal event that shows them how much they love each other. finding this book…. triggering…. for lack of a better term…..

definitely haven’t bawled my eyes out every night of reading this book. definitely not.

so far this book has made me feel nothing other than sick to my fucking stomach

lesbian behaviour

giggling and kicking my feet and shit when is it my turn

oh getting along better with boys as a kid is a canon didn’t-know-i-was-a-lesbian-yet event for me i fear

the YEARNINGGGGG MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

would you believe me if i told you i was starting this book over from the beginning immediately after finishing it….

“STS-LR9. steve’s my commander. it’s him, hank, griff, lydia, and me. right after christmas ‘84, six weeks after you” ha ha ha ha ha! this book is going to crush me by the way! if vanessa doesn’t get back to earth safely and live happily ever after i am going to freak the absolute fuck out!

“and i want to hear you tell me anything you’ve always wanted to tell someone. because you know that you’ve met someone who desperately wants to listen” i am SOBBING in my bed right now. i see so much of myself in joan

OHHHHHH MYYYYYYYY FUCKKKINNNNGGGGG GODDDDDDDDDD THE KISS HAD ME LITERALLY KICKING MY FEET IN THE AIR I LOVE THIS BOOOOKKKKKKKK (i already know whatever happens is going to absolutely destroy me and i can’t wait)

DAMN TJR WHAT A START

goodbye, friend grace 😭😭😭

GEEKING TF OUTTTTTTTTTTT

everybody in this book is so shitty. i am rooting for none of you to get what you want

ugh god i forgot how exhausting sally rooney books are to read

“i wonder, if theo had never been on their own, would they have discovered this? or did safety and familiarity keep them smaller? would there have always been a limit to how much they would know of themself, how much of them i would get to know? what tragedy that would have been, a comfortable, diminishing love. i’m beginning to wonder if italians have it right—if, sometimes, discovery wants bitterness first”

time for an easy comfort read cause i’ve got the pre-winter blues and school is kicking me while i’m down

sigh i’ve gotta return this one to the library but I’M COMING BACK FOR YOU WHEN I GET OFF THE MILLION PERSON HOLD LIST

strike 1: no quotation marks. strike 2: main character is racist despite being a poc herself. strike 3: main character is also transphobic?! a DNF from me on this one thanks though ❤️

“tonight, words are thieves. i don’t want them to steal this glowing feeling from my ribs. so instead, i curl around the precious ember in the dark of mag’s living room and shield it. i’ll keep it quiet and close and secret. neither. both. something else.” HEYYYYYYYY?!!???!???!??? YES??!?? EXACTLY?!??

this book is healing me in ways i didn’t even know i needed

now we’re talkinggggggg (although darcy’s kind of a hater and that’s not awesome)

the only thing worse than a virgo know it all bitch is a wannabe virgo know it all bitch (and this is coming from the former). currently not having fun with this one but i’m being so brave and trekking on

so far so gooddddd

jesus CHRIST