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« A sense of loss which was doomed to remain eternally unmitigated stealthily began to take shape. Whenever I spoke of painting, that undrunk glass of absinthe flickered before my eyes. I was agonized by the frustrating thought: if only I could show them those paintings they would believe in my artistic talents. »

« The weak fear happiness itself. They can harm themselves on cotton wool. Sometimes they are wounded even by happiness. I was impatient to leave her while things still stood the same, before I got wounded, and I spread my usual smokescreen of farce. »

« Before anyone realized it, I had become an accomplished clown, a child who never spoke a single truthful word. »

« “Sorry! Sorry! I had to pee. Like … so bad,” said the world’s smartest and most accomplished microbiologist. »

« I clench my teeth. I clench my fists. I clench my butt. I clench every part of me that I know how to clench. It gives me a feeling of control. I’m doing something by aggressively doing nothing. »

« "I'm dividing the Astrophage and sending it to thirty different labs around the world. Everything from CERN to a CIA bioweapons facility."
"The CIA has a biowea—?" I began. "Never mind." »

« I know Liberia uses imperial units but I don’t know my own name. That’s irritating. »

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« The old man said, “You will be required to do wrong no matter where you go. It is the basic condition of life, to be required to violate your own identity. At some time, every creature which lives must do so. It is the ultimate shadow, the defeat of creation; this is the curse at work, the curse that feeds on all life. Everywhere in the universe.” »

« “Want to know what the Russian police said?” Miss Marsten asked. “I know that, too.” Her freckled, orange face glowed. Rick said, “I’ll find out from Harry Bryant.” He felt irritable; office gossip annoyed him because it always proved better than the truth. »