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“Then I was able to tell myself, without lying, that it didn't affect me, that he didn't affect me, because nothing affected me. I didn't understand how morbidly right I was. How I had hollowed myself out.
For all my obsessing over the consequences of that night, I had misunderstood the vital truth: that it’s not affecting me, that was its effect.”

i feel awful. this book is so miserable it’s 11:30 at night and i don’t think im gonna get to sleep for a while

FUUUUUUUUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK

this is really good so far but i can’t help but think this is what it must feel like to read ‘a little life’

i think this may be the last YA book i ever read. i’ve well and truly aged out of this way of writing but im this deep in it now so i may as well finish

back to the YA slop !! let’s hope this one’s actually good

“[I] think about how you get trained early on as a woman to perceive how others are perceiving you, at the great expense of what yourself are feeling about them. Sometimes you mix the two up in a terrible tangle that’s hard to unravel.”

duuuuuuuuude

“my mother will be worrying about me, and i can’t tell her that im okay”
5 pages in and im already crying. oh this is gonna be a goodie