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“Soon the sprawling farms around us will be halved and sold, and split between children, and halved and sold again, and the city people will come and buy up that land, and they will build houses to live in during the Summer, when we are worth visiting”.

“Is it brave to be alone? Maybe, in a way. But it was also brave to ask someone to be with me, even though it was the wrong person, and in the wrong way. How could I have asked him to love me, day after day, when the answer kept on being no? What desperation made me live that way?” i’m her she’s me

“Maybe I had even chosen him because he so resisted loving me.
But it wouldn’t have mattered in the end.
Whatever he offered me would never have sufficed.
I had chosen someone who was by nature indifferent, and made it my project to make him love me”. …….👩🏼‍🦯

“I turned my face to the side and stared out my window. I was filled not only with misery about what he was saying, but also with shame at how I was wasting my short life. I was sitting in a car with someone who loved me more than life itself, and yet all I could think about was Ciaran. How impoverished my internal life had become, the scrabbling for a token of love from someone who didn’t want to offer it”.

“I caught a glimpse of myself and had to stop. I was so big. When I got to the pub, people would stare and whisper about how much bigger and uglier I was. That I wasn’t thin wasn’t the only thing about me, but when I returned to Waterford it seemed my defining trait, reminder that, at least there, at least home, at least where it counted, I’d always look like a misshapen version of my True Self” word 4 word

the amount of similarities between me and this book is oddly scary…..same age, same toxic relationship with a half irish guy, dropped uni, in love with love, living in dublin too 🫣 i guess it was written for Me specifically

so tempted to dnf this bc it's giving absolutely nothing but also idkkkk it's only 200 pages left......

not ts finally getting interesting only after 300 pages in

i’ve never been more invested in anything in my life, this is the best book ever

kinda addicted kinda meh

why are nikolai’s povs the most boring to me 🥱 i really can’t stand men i guess

picking up a fantasy book after what feels like years 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ this better not fail me

unfortunately i had to be a thought daughter and can’t just spend my summer reading chill romance books like everyone else

okay is it just me or has the writing style improved 300% since the first book 🫨 at least i’m not cringing reading every page!! woohoo

i feel like i’m gonna regret reading this but i’m a masochist so here we go!

this is Everything, literature is so back 🚬

115 pages in and this is giving more so far than the entirety of rhythm of war woops 🫣

getting there

will i finish this book or will this book finish me ⁉️🤣💯

i missed this ppl so much

sorry to say this but i’m dnfing because mid + it’s putting me in a reading slump + literally nothing has happened yet and i’m on page 300 + i couldn’t care less about the characters/history. not for me, i tried tho 😔✊🏼

THE PLOT TWIST OH MY GOD YESSSSSSS

the insane amount of times the name of the mc is mentioned per page is infuriating like on every single paragraph omg I KNOW WHO YOU’RE TALKING ABOUT there’s literally no need 🫥

only on chapter 4 but i don’t get a single thing of what’s happening 👩🏼‍🦯

me: idk this book might be too young adult-y for me
also me: stays reading till 4am

this book really is haunting me