Elle Nash > Quotes

“Pain is closer to love than indifference, right?”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“I learned that Lilith was made from the same dust as Adam, and not from his rib. I learned that Lilith was either banished or left the Garden because she refused to obey and it seemed likely to me that was why Eve was punished the way that she was, as if any form that was not Adam was set up from the beginning to fail.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“I didn’t know if I was crying because it hurt so bad or if I was crying because I had failed by letting the pain hurt me so much.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“I got bored of being sexual when I felt like a dead package of skin waiting to be unwrapped.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“Jealousy is the admission to yourself that you are replaceable.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“And I prefer the internet because I don't like having a body.”
― Elle Nash, Little Birds

“We all live this way; things fall apart and their corpses rot in front of us as we adapt to a lesser way of living.”
― Elle Nash, Deliver Me

“It’s my job to endure him.”
― elle nash, Deliver Me

“I loved him like I loved a root canal: something painful but necessary. Like life was more painful without him.”
― Elle Nash, Deliver Me

“A part of me was opening up, and while I could see the end of the road and new that it would lead to pain, instead of retreating, I wanted to walk directly into it. Pain is closer to love than indifference, right? I wanted to walk directly into it.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“Maybe it wasn’t true love after all. That was disappointing. I had hoped it was true love, that something like that could exist. Instead, it was just sex. Like everything else.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“I watched the faces of other people. I didn’t look like them. They all looked the same—clean, happy.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“The truth cannot be known by anyone other than the person who experienced it. Add a third person, and you get much, much closer to it.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“HOW DOES AN OBSESSION grow? Slowly, like a mold? The spores settle unseen and then blooms form, devouring any open brainscape. The genitals become infected quickly. I’m not sure how this process works exactly. A feedback loop. Mycelium reaches out, ridge by beating ridge, a thought, a heart rate rises, a feeling like sex or love, then another thought. Each pulse a quickening like river beneath the soil.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“She was not afraid to demand what she wanted, and I envied that. I spent so much of my life doing what everybody asked me that I wasn’t even sure what I wanted anymore, if I wanted anything, if I had needs at all.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“I’m drawn to him because of this lingering ferocity I see in men- the possibility of violence. The kind of man I prayed for all those years ago, I didn’t consider the other side of it. What the roots of loving someone like that would be, what it would grow into. And now, that possibility has snarled itself so thick into my life I am suspended within it.”
― Elle Nash, Deliver Me

“i can only stand to tear at myself because i'm scared to reach out. and i'm scared to reach up. potential is bright but my eyes are sensitive.”
― Elle Nash, Gag Reflex

“People hide from the things that make them vulnerable while they wait for the right moment, the opportunity to prey. It is instinctual to live in the dark.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“How glorious it is that we can create this. The responsibility and the curse. This power that belongs to only your body. This love that is unlike the love you have for your partner. It is a love that comes from within you, that you alone create. Unconditional. A word so overused it’s lost its true meaning. Without condition, endless, Christ-like. What a terrible grief it is to love even when you do not want to love; a hole is carved within you, and you become emptied of everything you have to give. Loving this child becomes your singular focus. You deaden against everything else.”
― Elle Nash, Deliver Me

“...only then do I feel right inhabiting this walking cage, otherwise my body is merely a grotesque, useless thing. I want to chop myself to bits and be fed to the fish in the canal.”
― Elle Nash, Deliver Me

“I did too many things to my body that made it feel old and tired, as though I were dragging all of the mistakes I’d ever made behind me with each step.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“The closer you get to the Wal-Mart headquarters, the closer you are to God.”
― Elle Nash, Deliver Me

“I told myself it wasn’t my attraction to him that was making me feel this way, but that I was addicted to doing the wrong things. Breaking the rules felt wrong at first, but it was exciting. It raised the stakes.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other

“At first I was attracted to changing the image of myself, placing tokens on my body to center who I was or where I’d been. After a while, I began to enjoy the dry, dull pain and the way each tattoo forced me to confront my own commitment to be hurt over and over again.”
― Elle Nash, Animals Eat Each Other