C.S. Autumn > Quotes

“Grief is a monster that hangs on your shoulders until you’re too weak to fight it.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“What if I die and I don’t find him in whatever place lies beyond this? What if there is no place among the stars where I get to be with him again?”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“He looks at me and smiles, tiny dimples popping on his cheeks. Even when I first met him, I thought he was handsome. But when he smiles and it's aimed at me? Breathtaking.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“As the words pour out of me, I see it in bright, beautiful technicolour. Our future. The one we’ve both been too afraid to speak about out loud. The one we deserve because love isn’t finite and we both have so much of it to give each other. This is us living, this is us taking back what fate stole. This is us. Jamie and Caiden.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Look for me in the stars.” His”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“The four of us lie in silence for a while, watching the stars, cheering when we see a shooting star go by. “I hope that’s where we go when we die,” Cooper says, his voice full of wonder. “It would mean that we get to look down on everyone we leave behind and they would always look up at us too. Because who doesn’t stop to look at the stars?”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Jamie Durand makes me feel a million different things and I both love it and fucking hate it.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Fly for me, sweetheart.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“They are a contradiction. One light, the other dark. Identical twins. Only not.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Caiden’s laugh is loud and foreign to my ears and I realise it’s the first time since we met that I’ve seen him even remotely happy. He’d be just as beautiful as his brother, I think to myself, if he wasn’t so fucking angry all the time.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Cradling him to my chest, on the cool bathroom floor, I think about the events that led us here. Going back to the day we met, to the day I fell in love with his twin, to the day our choices cost us more than we could ever afford. To the day I told him I wish he had died, to the day he left and then to yesterday when I watched him sleeping in the hospital bed, regretting every harmful word. And then to now. To this moment where it feels like he’s right where he’s meant to be. Where he smells unfamiliar but he feels like mine. That thought scares me more than I care to admit.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“I think I’m smiling. I think I’m smiling and I’m okay, because even though it’s dark and I never got to do all the things I wanted to, I can see Cooper and Jamie in a sea of light and they’re all I ever needed. And I’ll find them in the stars one day.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Love isn’t a finite, tangible thing that we give away once and then it’s gone. It’s infinite and renewable and available in abundance. And it is scary because we don’t know what’s around the corner, but you can’t let fear hold you back.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Oh leeutjie, you made it.”
― C.S. Autumn, Win You Over

“His green eyes burning into me, his smile small on his pretty lips and his voice warm and genuine. And I wanted whatever it is he gives my twin. For one selfish minute, I wanted it for myself. I'm scared of the way Jamie makes me feel.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Always and forever?” he asks. “Always and forever,” I reply. Because yes, this man is my forever.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“He doesn’t take my hand, just takes out his own mouth guard, looks me directly in the eyes, then promptly spits in my face. Hot. Lifting a hand, I wipe it from my skin and smirk, before leaning forward to whisper in his ear. “How do you always know what I like? You really should stop teasing me.”
― C.S. Autumn, Win You Over

“He’s beautiful. I want to kiss him. I don’t because we’re not that - I still don’t know what we are to each other, and I’d do well to remember that I have a girlfriend and a life that may never include Caiden Carrington. But God, do I want to kiss him.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Cooper is gone. Cooper is gone and I’ve moved on. The five unread texts from Rachel are a stark reminder that I moved on. I did. I really did. I’ve gotten so good at lying to myself.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“So, I’m asking you now. Don’t fake it with me anymore.”
― C.S. Autumn, Win You Over

“Do you want that? To be mine?” Whimpers fall from my lips and my body writhes beneath his as he works me over, hard and fast. “Say it.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“I feel like I’m drowning, Cooper. All the time. Like there’s all this water and it’s pushing me down, holding me under, and there’s no one there to save me.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Jamie Durand is annoying as fuck. He’s too perfect and no one is that perfect, not without having some darkness hiding somewhere.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“This can’t be real, I think to myself before I close the gap, slanting my lips over his and kissing him with every part of me. Nothing has ever felt as powerful, as life-affirming, as fucking magical as this kiss. If I was head over heels for the guy before, I have no chance of ever standing on my own two feet again.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“He knows his worth, and he values his family. When we’re together, I feel wanted and adored. But mostly I feel safe and happy.”
― C.S. Autumn, Win You Over

“Nothing has ever felt as powerful, as life-affirming, as fucking magical as this kiss. If I was head over heels for the guy before, I have no chance of ever standing on my own two feet again.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“don’t know where we’re going but it doesn’t matter because for this little bit of time, I’m going to trust that she won’t hurt me and even if she does, she wouldn’t be the first person tonight to do so. She wouldn't even be the second.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“showing and telling someone you love them should be something you do every day of your life. One day, you may wake up and not have that option any longer so why waste the precious minutes when they’re right there in front of you?”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment

“Remington is not just looking at me, he’s reading me, assessing me, and I think he sees all my broken, scarred pieces. And that is far worse than losing the fight and his bet.”
― C.S. Autumn, Win You Over

“Tell Jamie…tell Jamie, always.”
― C.S. Autumn, That One Moment