Crystal Nichols > Quotes

“My heart stopped for a moment as I locked eyes with Myles. His usually cheerful face peered out from his front window, he looked somber and concerned. I smiled at him and nodded my head, I had this. I would get through today, finally put my past in the rearview mirror and get one step closer to my future. A future with Myles.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“I could bring this to the partners if they tried to fire me and keep Jonathan.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“In the rare moments that I was sober, when I had run out of my secret supply or Alyssa was watching me too closely and I had to skip my nightcap, I felt overwhelmed with panic. During those brief lucid intervals I felt true fear, I knew Alyssa was unstable. I knew we weren't equipped to have a child together. I knew that I had ruined my life irrevocably.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“It was my mission to cross off every item on her Johnny Wouldn't List, even if that meant axe throwing.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“The lawyers my parents hired for me were pushing for psych treatment rather than prison but it was taken off the table when I fired them.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Jonathan may not be the man I thought he was, he may not even be the man I want but I refuse to admit defeat. I would see this all the way to the end.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“This would be a big surprise, he would come home and I would be waiting for him. I would apologize, I would grovel, I would do whatever I had to do in order to get us back on the same course. He needed me, whether he realized it or not. If he tried to take me down, I would pull him down with me.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Isla looked the same as always, beautiful and poised. Unfazed. I hated her. It burned through me, making me want to claw at her hair and skin. Light her on fire, hold her head underwater. I wanted to hear her screams, I wanted her to hurt the way I hurt. She didn't know what it was like! She had no idea what it felt like to lose yourself so deeply in someone's shadow that you don't know where they end and you begin. Isla had eclipsed me her entire life, and the one time I got close to dimming her light she came out guns blazing.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Alyssa Isla trembled before me and I couldn't help the wicked smile spreading across my face. Finally, she was put in her place. She would atone for her sins in front of everyone.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“He had no reason now not to go public with our relationship, no reason to resist me”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“As I approached my childhood home I decided to slow down and decided to leave my car parked a street away from the house. I may not have any sort of training but there was a reason I chose a career where I could work alone. People were crazy. They were unpredictable, unreliable and far too emotional. My sister was all of that and more.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Yeah, please I have to call my brother and find out where to take it." I said trailing off, realizing there was no way Wes would take a call from me. I frowned, unsure of what to do. Should I call Jonathan? Would he even answer?”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“EX wife. My name is Sully and you better fucking remember it. I will haunt you and that miserable cunt for the rest of your pathetic lives.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“My parents tried to buy my forgiveness by hiring a lawyer for me but I fired that fucker on the spot.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Somehow, I would make Isla suffer, I would make her care, I would make her hurt.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“They wanted to shove me in a box and put me away, neatly filing all of my actions under the label of mentally ill. I wasn't crazy, and I was tired of everyone trying to make me feel that way.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“All of the reasons I excused my behavior, rationalized stepping out on Isla were lost to me at this moment. She was everything that Alyssa was not. How could I willingly leave a woman like Isla for something so fleeting, so irrational, so irrevocable? How could my sins be so clear to me now, when there was nothing I could do to repent for them?”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Where had the handsome, dominant, powerful man from a few short months ago gone? How had he fallen so hard and so fast? Was this all my doing? No. I refused to go there. This was Isla's fault and Jonathan was as much to blame as I was.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“We all knew Alyssa was crazy but we couldn't predict this.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“My earlier embarrassment morphed, no longer was I ashamed of myself, but ashamed of this man I had thought so highly of. His entire life was falling apart, Isla was the only thing that had kept him together apparently. We needed each other still, and neither of us liked it. I needed him to prove to Isla that I could keep him when she couldn't, I needed him to validate that I won. He needed me because he had nothing left. He too, was stuck in Isla's shadow now.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Myles The weeks after Isla’s divorce was finalized flew by in a flurry of activity, with my mind firmly focused on all things Isla. She was my beacon now, I didn't see any way forward without her. Our first time being intimate together was life altering. There was no going back after that, not for me. Isla was imprinted on me now, mind, body and soul. It was an average night at my house when it happened.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“But he only cared about his mythical grandchild, once again I was being shoved aside for someone else.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“The only thing I want to hear from you is her name or mine. Choose one of us now.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Those green eyes were keeping me awake though, this woman, Sarah, was captivating.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“Another example of Alyssa tainting something that was once beautiful,”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“I wish you no harm Jonathan. I hope you can take this chance to start over and make the right decisions, get back to that boy full of dreams who wanted to help people, the one I fell in love with. He was a good person. I believe you can find him again.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“I was lulled into a false sense of security. Letting surface level chatter clear my consciousness of any worries I may have still had. Knowing all of that was still not enough for me to reconcile my little sister with the person she's become of late. It wasn't just the affair with Jonathan that shocked me, it was her entire perspective on it.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“I'm not going to waste any breath telling you how much more we expected from you. You are our son and we love you. There is nothing left here for you though. The best thing you could do, for yourself and for Isla, is pack up and leave town. You're still young, you can start over somewhere else. You've done too much damage here, personally and professionally.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“I never meant to work for long, I always expected to be a socialite and elite party host.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts

“I had a feeling I knew why he was here, but I wanted him to say it. I need him to understand that he was crawling back to me. That if he wanted to stay here he was beholden to me.”
― Crystal Nichols, Just Desserts