Chelsea Ballinger > Quotes

“For me… it was excruciating.” He closed his eyes for a moment then focused on her. “It is so painful to truly love someone so much and not have them. For years I practiced tolerating that pain. Around the time I was sixteen I could finally stand to look at you. So, I did, all the damn time. I watched you so carefully. I captured every smile, every frown, every tear from you. I wanted you… but I couldn’t have you. Then one day we became friends and
the pain came back, but I didn’t care because you were my friend, my best friend. But when you kissed me, I realized the feeling I had before was nothing compared to what I felt when we kissed. I felt alive… and guilty and betrayed, because it’s not fair. It’s not fair for me to go through that… to want to kiss you every day, every hour, every minute for the rest of my miserable life, but I want to. I’m afraid that it will get to a point where I need to. I have been in love with you since I was eight years old. I have hated the way my father has treated me, but nothing has hurt me as much as the pain of my mother’s death except seeing you and my brother in bliss. What I want is for you to stay in this room with me. I want to feel how you feel, taste how you taste, and completely fall in you because I’m just… tired of always wanting what I can’t have. I want to make you smile, make you happy… I want to be inside you… I want to give you pleasure in every way… mind, body, and soul… I am completely, madly… and utterly in love with you… and it hurts… because I can’t have you. And it hurts because if there is a chance that I can then it is possible that it will turn out to be my tragedy and misfortune. And all I can say to that … I accept my tragedy… but I don’t wish it.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, The Kindness of Kings

“I know, but still. Hear this now, Mina," he paused. "You are the truest of truths and in some alternate universe where people could be whatever they wanted, you would be Queen.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, The Kindness of Kings

“I’ve been surrounded by nitwits my entire life.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints

“Us women, no matter how crude we are with one another,we must always remember that we have two enemies in common.”
The three of us look at each other confused, then back at Ms. Eleanor waiting for her to answer.
“Men,” she sighs, still staring off. “And old age.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints

“I hear your voice in my sleep. When I’m near you, I am aware of every fucking second your body shifts. When I’m not near you... I can’t even think straight because I’m too busy thinking about what stupid thing you said or visualizing every smile you give me. Seeing you with my brother awakens my dark heart... kissing you, carves out my soul. I forsake every itch my body has for you just so I cannot be trapped by you. Never in my life have I wanted a woman so much yet couldn’t do it because I know that once we really just...” I lift my hands up clawing at the air. “When we sink into each other... it will be over.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints

“You know, I gave you the benefit of the doubt earlier when I first encountered you, the raging beast—oh I mean bitch. But now
I truly think that if greats who devoted themselves and achieved in some way at killing evil with kindness like Martin Luther King, Gandhi, Mandela, Mother Teresa, well I think if any of them met you... they truly would break that seal of devotion and beat the bloody shit out of you.”
“I take that as a compliment.”
“Oh, I know you do.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints

“I think I am more prone to mistrust kindness than something that is obviously bad.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, The Kindness of Kings

“Crying is good for the soul, or so they say.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints

“Life is a slow burning trial that is unbalanced and at risk. Anything could ruin it, but it’s about what you do with that ruin. It’s like hair. You can cut it, but it will grow back and it is possible that it won’t grow back the same way it was before, but it doesn’t matter as long as it still grows. So don’t dwell on the ruin, Louie. Make something out of it.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, The Kindness of Kings

“Are you trying to call me strange, Mandrake?” I pout playfully.

He nods. “Your strange is what makes you sensational to me.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints

“Why would you want to live forever alone? The tribes are needed because it is a family. And a mate is also needed. You need someone to… stay in the darkness with you, because in that darkness, if you have love, that person could be your own personal light. That person could be your heaven.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Rise Of The True Immortal

“My future in-laws are out shopping and plotting my demise, I suppose.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints

“It’s supernatural, hard to explain it any further.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Rise Of The True Immortal

“Hugo, we are taught to be advanced in every form from academically to socially. I think our parents fucked it up, taking that advancement for granted. They wanted us to grow up with everything and in return of that we became spoiled.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, My Silent Hero

“She fell down fifty-five floors. It took 10.6 seconds for her to hit the ground. It took my father forty-eight hours to come back home from his business trip in Sweden.”
― Chelsea Ballinger, Sinners & Saints