Rae Earl > Quotes

“I wish I was Rapunzel
Letting down her hair
But at the bottom of my tower
There's nobody stood there.

No prince to carry me off to the sunset...
The reason why of course,
I don't look like his princess,
I look like his horse.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“I want to be loved. Oh, it's SO CORNY, isn't it?! But I just want to be loved by a bloke that loves ME! I want to feel special, you know. I almost feel guilty for feeling it.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“I just don't get men. Mind you, I don't get me either.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“And it makes you think. Even things that have been the same for years and years can change. Maybe I can change. I can bring my own wall down, and let people in.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“…but how come I can give advice and cheer up other people, but I can’t do that with my own life. I don’t understand it.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“If you are slightly different, if your face doesn’t fit, they judge you and consign you and throw away the fucking key.
They never, ever stop to think that THEY might be wrong, that THEY are making a mistake. Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t been the victim of a massive miscarriage of justice - I’m not saying that - BUT I know what it’s like to be stinking judged before people have even bothered to find out what you are about. They have boxed me off into the ugly group even before I have opened my gob.
SOCIETY IS SHIT.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“Sometimes, you know, I just want to curl up and see if anyone notices I’m not there.
But I know time is short. Moping around wastes times. I always get attacks of paranoia. Big deal. Fed up of worrying what people think of me and they feel for me.
But I wonder what they do feel for me, though. Am I loved? Perhaps in somebody’s bedroom I am secretly fancied?
Probably not.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“I can be such a horrible person sometimes. But I think we all are underneath. Sometimes. I only say bad things here. Never to people’s faces. I’ve had that much crap said to me I don’t want anyone sitting in their bedroom feeling shit because of me.
Couldn’t live with that.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“I need to do SOMETHING to make ME feel better about ME.”
― Rae Earl, My Madder Fatter Diary

“Sometimes it feels like everything is going wrong. Even with the things that are wrong already.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“Kids say stupid stuff all the time,' but it hurts even as I am writing this. It's like everywhere I go I am pointed at and stared at by EVERYONE and it's like my weight is there to be discussed and laughed at.
But if I was in a wheelchair they wouldn’t do it. If I had terrible scars they wouldn’t do it - but it’s OK to do it to me. Because they know. I caused this. This is self-inflicted,
This is lazy, stupid, careless, crap, fat me.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“Some people are doing Ouija boards at school but I'm not touching that shit. Knowing my luck, bloody Jack the Ripper would try to get in touch.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“There is never just one bitch in a fat, mad girl's life.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“There is a new codeword going round school. DFS. It means 'desperate for sex.' It sounds like you are talking about the furniture shop. For the record, I'm certainly DFS. In fact I am permanently shopping in DFS with no hope of getting out of the store.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“ME LIKE THE MAGNET

Men I like, I repel
Like a magnet do
So if I'm nasty
Then you know
I probably fancy you.

"It's defence," the shrinks would say.
"It's protects against a fall."
It's impenetrable this fence of mine
It's like the Berlin Wall.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“I’m so NUMB. I just don’t care, it seems-but I must do. This is all going to sound totally incoherent. I’m that bunged up, but totally empty. I think my worries about who I am have reached a head.
I mean who is Rae Earl?
I think I know myself, but then other people say things.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“And that will be on my medical records for ever.
Everyone will always know I’m a nutter. Behavioural problems. I’m just a bloody label…
A label written on a white board in a single room without a radio, in a place where everyone else was at least 20 years older than me. Can’t think about it. It’s anger that goes nowhere.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“And once you are that fat, the ‘fuck-it-factor; comes into play. The fuck-it factor means that you know (even the most basic grasp of nutrition) it will take ages to lose your excess weight, so you might as well get an easy lay by sticking half a packet of Hula Hoops into a tub of cheese spread.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“What is it about men in dinner jackets?! Black tie makes even the most geeky bloke look gorgeous, and as for the already good-looking ones - well, it sends them into sex appeal overdrive, and they know it.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“I love being with people and hate being disliked. It’s a mass thing…but I want a special kind of relationship with one person too.
I just can’t seem to have both”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“There was this one model in French Elle. I can’t imagine what it must be like to be her. She was brunette with big lips and was wearing this tight navy dress by Azzedine someone. She was so beautiful; and the choices she must have. and…Oh, I would give it all up just to have been born that way because her life will be so easy. She won’t have to think, and men will fall into her lap and…It’s all unfair and I don’t want to even write it.
It will never change, and no one wants to admit it but being thin and pretty is the best thing a woman can be.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“The point is- who is mad and who isn't?”
― Rae Earl, My Madder Fatter Diary

“What would be the best therapy? Punching the evil sod in the knob! [...]
It doesn't undo it though. You'd feel good for a second and then there's just emptiness. It's like bingeing. After the chocolate there's the wrappers.”
― Rae Earl, My Madder Fatter Diary

“Just to held. Just to be needed. This stupid body, It stops everything, everything that I want.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“You'd be surprised what lengths people will go to not to face what's real and painful inside them.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary

“She reckons most of those models eat about one carrot a week, chew cotton wool like race horse jockeys to keep thin, and smoke cigarettes.
Apparently, they all look like crap by the time they are 30, and go out with the ‘wrong’ sort of men..”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“Last night was one of the weirdest nights of my life. And remember – I have already been in a psychiatric ward.”
― Rae Earl

“So eventually I instantly backed down and apologised for NOTHING. She was instantly fine - surprise, surprise.”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“(One person is actually a mixture of three people:Bethany - she’s three girls rolled into one. There is never just one bitch in a fat, mad girl’s life)”
― Rae Earl, My Mad Fat Diary

“Fuck exercise now. I'll start it when I'm thin.”
― Rae Earl, My Fat, Mad Teenage Diary