Nick van der Leek > Quotes

“The fact that Watts seemed to use arguments from various conspiracies to inform his own successive versions also reinforces this sense that psychologically he’s just as insecure as he is socially, and vis-à-vis the opposite sex.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“When the self is under attack, no matter whether the self is insecure or not, the ego is the first to respond. If the response is not to respond, in other words if there is an inward reply, then the reply comes from the ego, and the ego begins to expand commensurate to the threat. The longer this secret dialogue continues between the external and a man’s interior world, the more the ego swells, balloons, until it begins to engulf the whole self.”
― Nick van der Leek, TWO FACE: OBLIVION

“I commit to deeply listening to your needs and feelings until I fully understand them and appreciate what you need to feel, hear and see in order to fully believe that I truly wish to make amends.”
― Nick van der Leek, Resurrection

“If you ignore the red flags, embrace the heartache to come.” ― Amanda Mosher, Better to be able to love than to be loveable”
― Nick van der Leek, TWO FACE: DRILLING THROUGH DISCOVERY

“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existence. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvellous structure of reality.” ― Albert Einstein, 2 May 1955, Life Magazine”
― Nick van der Leek, BOY, INTERRUPTED: THE MURDER OF GANNON STAUCH

“Double Act “It is double pleasure to deceive the deceiver.” ― Niccolo Machiavelli”
― Nick van der Leek, Blood & Seawater: Why Laci Peterson was Murdered

“the new.”
― Nick van der Leek, Two Face: The man underneath Christopher Watts

“If Shan’ann had believed she could make it alone, perhaps she’d be alive now. If Kessinger hadn’t been so desperate not to be alone, perhaps she wouldn’t be where she is now. And if Watts had been able to delay gratification and get divorced properly, and deal with the pain and trouble most people who get divorced go through [and yes, accepted the possibly of retribution from Shan’ann], perhaps he wouldn’t be twiddling his thumbs in prison until the end of time either.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“What this means is Watts wasn’t less smart because he was sleepy, or because the premeditation was relatively brief, or because he was in love. It means Watts wasn’t very smart to begin with, and these three factors simply aggravated the odds that were stacked against an already iffy intellect.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“Virginia Woolf once wrote: “To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is...at last, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away...”
― Nick van der Leek, Resurrection

“I will use that knowledge to move to a place within myself that will give you the reassurance and confidence that I will to the best of my ability become the person that I need to be for you to feel safe enough to restore the innocence in the relationship.”
― Nick van der Leek, Resurrection

“Watts thought he could gain everything by lying, but it turned out the opposite was true. You can lose everything by letting go of your hold on reality, and on truth. You can lose your life, you can lose your family, and if allowed to fester long enough, you can lose your country too.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“It does appear from Kessinger’s texts and Google searches that Kessinger was pursuing him. This was a huge deal for an internally paralyzed schmuck with no game. The symbolism of the key was also a huge signal not only from Kessinger, but received loud and clear by Watts.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“It’s as if the Rubik’s cube of those seven minutes unfolds into an orrery.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: WEDDED HUSBAND, WEDDED WIFE

“He defaulted back to the spineless coward who did as he was told, then tried to wriggle out of it later when the coast was clear.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“In effect, the murder is of his old self in favor of the new.”
― Nick van der Leek, Two Face: The man underneath Christopher Watts

“When we're so caught up in a culture of consumerism [and that is precisely what network marketing is, consumption as a cult] images of people smiling in cars, happy homes and holidays, triggers deep feelings of insecurity.”
― Nick van der Leek, Two Face: The man underneath Christopher Watts

“Watts was so poor at managing his time and curbing his distractedness because he was dumb, and as he ran out of time and became more distracted [and fatigued] he became even dumber. It’s dumb and dumber, not smart undermined by dumbing influences.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“Little by little a seed can become a sapling, then a young tree and then a giant mass thwarting the sunlight in the human mind. Finally, the tree was part of a dark forest, a plantation of intention and ego until eventually there was no time left, and only one option left. To do it. Grease ‘em now… Grease ‘em all…”
― Nick van der Leek, TWO FACE: DRILLING THROUGH DISCOVERY

“If you still think social media has nothing to do with the annihilation of the Watts household, think again. If you think social media has nothing to do with how and why America currently finds itself divided, split down the middle, in some ways paralysed politically, think again. If you think the current craziness in the world, where people are raging about racism and human rights is innocent, and innocently organic – think again.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH

“During the replay of the Trinastich CCTV video, while Officer Coonrod was standing opposite him [effectively quizzing him on the possibility of an alibi for a triple murder he’d committed mere hours earlier], Watts was texting Kessinger.[97] He seemed at turns nervous, restless, distracted and even daydreaming at times.”
― Nick van der Leek, SILVER FOX: POST TRUTH