Isobella Jade's Blog

I was still modeling, but I was grieving also.


From my journal on my father’s death and that first year. I can be certain that in year two, three, five and...the carrying of carrying on is still carried. The pack of unsaid words, moments of wish-you-were-here, the wondering of whys, the new hellos, the signs and symbols of what was, the thankfulness of knowing what was, the discoveries, the memory, the honor and pride runs in you, it grows, it grows you, your heart, while carrying them on. 
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This episode features my father's voicemails. While grieving, hearing my father's voice has helped me find solace. Yes, it is hard sometimes to listen to them, but also I get to be in his day again...for a few minutes...and it's been important toward making peace with how he died to hear him alive.

When there isn't a goodbye, it helps as though his last voicemails...are his last words.


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On this podcast episode I mention modeling and the Apple store, I share a part of the special meaning behind my father's rings.




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This episode is about my father's sports jacket. 
For more stories check out my podcast on loss and heirlooms.
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Podcast series on heirlooms on iTunes
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For more stories on grief and heirlooms visit me www.isobellajade.com 

More quotes and thoughts on grief, healing and heirlooms can be found at my website www.isobellajade.com or by visiting www.8Heirlooms.com 

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I hope these thoughts touch your heart.

-Isobella

This is my father's pocketknife I found in his car after he died. It reminded me of being 12 years old when he gave me his old pocketknife back then, and the meaning of the memory it holds.



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Sometimes the gift doesn't sparkle or shine, sometimes it holds the hope that things will get better. 
--Pocketknife podcast narrative.

After my father passed away time changed, for a long time it felt slow--marked by what happened before and after. And this reads how I had felt in those early months and years. Sometimes I still can't believe it, and sigh into the knowing that he is gone, as another year turns.

It's easy to know how long as my son was born the following year after his death. Parenthood and grief-hood have both grown me so much, side by side.
More on grief, heirlooms and carrying on: www.8Heirlooms.com And on my narrative podcast series on iTunes here.

I remember I didn't put my makeup on the day my Dad died. Days went by without a clean face or glance at a tooth brush. My words left unsaid trampled over themselves in my mind, and kept me quiet asking why, why now, where there, why this way, while I went through my to-do list closing my father's life. It included deciding on an urn. My face became parched and dry.






More on grief, heirlooms and carrying on: www.8Heirlooms.com And on my narrative podcast series on iTunes here.

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There's a story in what's left behind.
Isobella