Mark Ryan's Blog: Havoc and consequence

Grasping into the air, coming up empty. Reaching for the diamonds that you scatter. Peppering oily words that lodge in my teeth. My scull exhales. I Blink. You’re gone. My house sits quietly. The storm in the stillness, awaiting the break. An internal collapse has rendered my soul paralysed. A need to function, a call… Continue reading PROFESSIONAL TRAUMA

Carry these truths away, don’t bring them home. Bury them deep inside my bones. Fallen on ears so deaf and blind. Refusing to allow the real inside. So, you carry them, bury them, haul them away. Set them on fire, to make me stay. Ashes now, with smiles content. The only way, that you relent.… Continue reading IMPOSSIBLE

A vacancy of care, this blanket cast over a life which moves all too quickly towards a known unknown. Deep in the garden of this soul, dwells more things than time can offer adequate explanation. Some things lurk in the shadows; others posture in the light. The precious illusions of a healthy robust system, veils… Continue reading Weeds

Mind and muscle try to escape gravity. Standing too soon. Trying to lift off into the unknown. Far away from here. Hanging onto nothing but indecision. You close your eyes to the jet stream, and that fear of falling. You feel it now in your veins. Coursing through the difference like a teenager. Struggling for… Continue reading NEVER BE HERE

No weight. No pain. No feeling of truth or feeling what it takes. Deep a long time ago, I smiled on through. Heart in the air, eyes all untrue. Now the shadows close in, splintering the heart. Falling to pieces, back at the start. All Heavy. All pain. All of this happening, again and again.…

Between the moments. Straddling the sigh. The light there in your eyes. What seeps into the space between. Bookended against love and needful things. What must I give, to receive. This alchemy on the tempering waves of now. In the dwindling darkness of despair. My ego tried to take me there. To a place where… Continue reading Silence & Light

With such vulnerability, invites a trample uponess. A doormat heart and soul. What systems are in place which assuages this overthinking. The flux between sun and moon. Deliver me soon and unspool my wondering mind. For it lingers in the doubt and the weeds. Growing like sycamore sentiments which climb to the sky. Bursting the… Continue reading Trespass

Who knew the fury in that silent smile? Little iceberg teeth bitten by the frost of circumstance. Does she look to the sky, hurrying the rain to fall? To wash away the paint on her wedding dress; the coal in her brain or the handcuffs around her heart? What song does she hum along to,… Continue reading TEARS IN THE CHRYSALIS

Disappearing now. The time came suddenly, like a Monday morning. Calling you, as a long lost friend. You took a hold of the avalanche and held your breath. Erasing all in a brilliance of white and gold. No more tomorrow thinking. Or second guessing. Passing now into something else. Not man made. Between interstellar space,… Continue reading Second Guessing

How dare you illuminate and steal my heart. You glisten there with your tide of treachery. Luring many to the edges. My heart was strong, yet you broke it apart. Forcing the pieces to drift in their gravitless state. You are a thief and a liar. For the light you shine is not your own.… Continue reading Kill The Moon