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All donations will go towards equipment upgrades filming, clothes etc.

Current need of upgrades for 2021:


iPhone 12 Pro Max (for HD videos and larger video space) 528GB $1499

Clothes and shoes (Appropriately $500)


Studio Filming Booking ($300 per use, so depending on how many times I need to use the space per year, about $300 – $900)

Total Fan Raising Goal for 2021:

$3000



Thank you for supporting The Scarlet Queen all these years!

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Caught in the middle of a storm
there is no way out, except to scream
These words go unheard, over and over.
The deaths, the agony, the misery
Falling leaves in springtime
Trapped in the epicenter of a chaotic mess
The invisible disease that ravages our bodies
As fresh grown crops go unpicked
The silence of Times Square
The closing of Wall Street
The concealment of data
Endless unnecessary suffering

 

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There is real pain in my creations. Sometimes I ask myself why do I have to do the things that I do, and it is essentially meaningless. But there is something within me that I need to express artistically – to push the limits of what it means to be human. I don’t think I will understand myself not I will understand the universe or comprehend it. But at least in this short time on earth – I had lived my life to the fullest and did most of what I wanted to do without subjecting myself to the limitations of societal expectations.

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I got on the Amazon Prime Radical Body Transformation Program for 8 months with the intention to run a Spartan Race. Although I would consider myself pretty athletic, I mainly dance as my main form of exercise and running a Spartan race is entirely different from dancing. I have been assigned a virtual coach, Josh, who oversees my diet and exercise schedule. We do a weekly check in on Saturdays and he changes my workouts and calories intake accordingly.

The first week was extremely tough as I would workout for 45 minutes and be utterly exhausted that I would fall asleep once I hit the bed. So I had to refrain from going home too early so as not to fall asleep at 8pm, if not, I would wake up in the middle of the night be awake too early. I made some adjustments to do meal preps for most of my meals, and got more protein in. Counting protein is extremely hard as it requires a certain level of discipline to hit the protein requirement weekly. I sometime miss it or I overdo it. It’s easy to do it with protein shakes and bars but my coach advised me to try to get natural sources of protein from meats and eggs. It’s rather challenging and it continues to up my game.

I went outlet shopping and got new sports attires specifically designed for running as wearing dance fitness wear is kind of different from workout wear and I don’t want to stand out in the gym too much. I got a fitness tracker, and basically I am all set to train. The second week felt so much better in fact, I feel like running and working out more than the first week. I no longer feel exhausted, which is great.

My last time racing was when I was a teenager, I came in 25th out of over a thousand people from my school’s annual marathon race. Interestingly, I did not train for that race but coming from a competitive dance background helps with endurance as we usually dance for 2 – 4 hours. I have never raced since then. I think I do better in long distance than short distances.

I was considering learning gymnastics and did aerial silk for a while, and there is a problem with being dyslexic – I would probably never be that good in aerial silk due to my inability to tell directions unless it is learnt by constant repetition or muscle memory. For gymnastics, the gateway is to go to the gym first before attempting it. I figured out training for a spartan race does help me become a better dancer as the difference between a semi pro dancer and a pro dancer is the level of fitness, ballet training and fundamental conditioning (daily stretching etc).

I might flop at the race, but at least I tried to train for it. I think it’s all about keeping to a schedule and I am excited to embark on this fitness journey

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It is my opinion that possessing “the method” is similar to possessing the state of zen. Strasberg studied the method in Russia for a total of nine months before he came out with his own ideology and structure on how to teach it. The art could essentially be lost, but I was fortunate enough to experience and learn it from the best teachers in New York. I won’t say I am a master, but a practitioner of the method. It might take me another 10, 20 years to do it consistently.

Sometimes I ask myself, is acting an art worth pursuing, because it is so invisible and it should not be seen. A sign of a bad actor is when the audience knows he is acting. I am definitely concealing probably about 80% of the time and doing improvisations around 20% of the time. My scenes are mostly hits in audition rooms and I book the room regularly but not the final job. I still look like a teenager, it will be 10 years later before I could be a serious contender.

To test my acting abilities I would do murder mysteries (to remove any bias and recognition of who I am actually am) and see if I get voted at the end for best performer after the mystery concludes, which by far I get voted as best performer 50% of the time.

The unraveling of the secret self lies so deep, that it is so hard for me to openly say, “yes, I am a professional actress.” I would describe myself in a thousand different ways like Mystique and wear different camouflages to deny who I truly am. I had denied myself and sabotaged my own efforts to reach the highest potential in my life on many instances. I wrote novels, danced on many stages, but my actual dream is to act.

As it is with the Russian tradition, professional actors are considered the merger of “an artist and athlete in one.” I am working on my physical athleticism,by being serious about my fitness goals.

I always felt there was something missing in my life, which is my counterpart or what I would call, “my parallel opposite.” Recently it occurred to me I have found him, and met him. Even the knowledge that someone like this exist, makes me feel complete. It’s hard to explain it, but I can finally envision a future that feels right. It is a love that feels right, no matter how absurd it seems. With him, there is an additional dimension to my creativity that was previously untapped.

If it is the power of love that separates the good from the great, I have finally found the greatness within myself to go for my dreams.

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I have to admit I spent most of my life overcompensating to be good enough. I would work 16 hours a day, and not socialise to achieve my goals. I wanted to be perfect. I needed and craved for validation, at the expense of my health and well being. I would tear down the skies, to hear, “It’s going to be okay.”


 


At this stage of my life, I would say I have reached the pinnacle. A list of feats that I made possible in a short duration of time, because of my ruthlessness. I don’t think I am well liked, I think I might be hated.


 


Four years of business school doesn’t train someone to be compassionate. It trains you to get down to the bottom line. It’s soul breaking training, the graduation rate is less than 50%. It corrupts the mind, it crushes dreams and it forces cold hard facts and removes all traces of emotions. To succeed, one must develop a sense of being in a state of zen.


 


My identity was fragmented in the process of business school, it broke into pieces, only to be merged together again in my pursuit of the highest form to be an artist and athlete. With this new form, I can truly say I have been to the depths of the deepest caves of my mind and back. I am glad I undertook the training to be an actor, I would never have understood myself this deeply otherwise.

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Being in New York is like the end game of life. After scaling Mount Everest, and being all alone at the top looking into the abyss, is a sinking feeling of despondence. I am surrounded by similar high achievers who did the same, and it is a bottleneck. We are all waiting for our turns to be the next big thing, because at the end, there are actually thousands of us and we are not that different or unique as it seems. We are traded like commodities, and like fashion trends, our skill sets and looks go in and out of style.

 

I’ve met a man who was a mirror image of myself. What does all day is to watch endless off Broadway shows whenever he pleases at his own time while directing 400 staff as a dyslexic entrepreneur who does yoga daily. I’ve met lawyers who swear they are living an glamorous life of a working 60 hours a week in the office while volunteering to give free legal advice to those who can’t afford it in on their weekends. I just have to walk less than mile before I bump into a Harvard or MIT grad or PhD holder who is researching or have invented the technology we use daily.

My fascination with men who can dance continues not to fade. When I see a man who dances well embracing a woman in his arms.. it makes me cry. I listen to compositions by Abel Korzeniowski, for it makes me dance to the abyss, to the skies and dream of being in the arms of such a man once again. In the subways, lost in the music, I am found regularly hugging pillars to the visions of such an imaginary lover.

We were eternity, the stars and the beyond. We were cosmic. We were forever. But now, I am alone. I am singular. I am… despondent.

I could only say, “I love you.” to the stars before disappearing away to the next composition that will drift me into my fantasies.

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Q: You published three full length novels before the age of 30 years old, how did you do it?


 


AVER: Only one in a thousand people who start writing a novel actually complete the novel. It is like climbing Mount Everest, and I think it’s just one those things in life that it’s nice to have accomplished. At the Thriller Writers Convention in NYC, most authors are double my age. I am the only Asian in the room.


 


My writing abilities were spotted early in school by my teachers who would photocopy my essays and pass them around for other teachers to read (I took literature, history, economics). They cast me lead in the school’s play as Desdemona in Othello. I was in the school’s dance and debate team. When a member of parliament visited my school, I had a debate with him about the freedom of the press. Singapore has one of the lowest freedom of speech in the world. Prestigious magazines and books were regularly banned out of political interest. The debate was well received by the students. I was nominated for the student council.


 


At 18 years old, I fell into depression due to constant harassment from my classmates who did not like the attention I was getting. Where was an incident when I opened my locker and there was rotten food inside. My notes were stolen, and they called me names. I dropped out of college and gave up my dreams of becoming a lawyer. I enrolled in business school, and started writing my novels.


 


I think essentially what happened was that I became an outlier of the conservative and stressful Singapore education system. I pursued my freedom in speech in writing fictional worlds, so my books will never get banned and I will never end up in jail. I created the Scarlet Queen YouTube fantasy channel that has over four million views. This year, the amount of views on my YouTube will exceed the population of Singapore. My works are well loved by a loyal fan following.


 


If I did not drop out of college, Singapore would have gained a powerful politician and lawyer who will focus on gender equality, freedom of the press, free medical care and LGBT rights.

 

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This music video is a direct cross cultural reference to American society from a modern Japanese point of view.

– In this music video she sleeps with eight different men as a diamond ring flashes in the background.

– It is a cross reference to her personal life whereby she has gone through a divorce with an American, as some of the sentimental lyrics are the words she wants to say to her former lover.

– This is probably the most intimate music video that features her on a bed 80% of the time with different men, which is a statement by itself to the casual nature that people treat relationships. Gone are the days that diamonds are forever.

– The diamond mask and paper fortress are actually symbolic of the superficial levels of American society, that diamonds are actually worthless in value but inflated by advertising. The paper fortress represents paper currency, which in essence is “fake” as intrinsically, America is in debt.

– A wild galloping stallion in the background is the symbol of female empowerment, and it represents Ayumi Hamasaki as herself in the image of a wild stallion. That she is pretty much free to transverse different landscapes and sleep with whoever she wants.

– This music video is in essence about the freedom of the female sexuality, portrayed by a Japanese woman with contemporary American symbols.

– It may be a statement that the freedom of the female sexuality should be limitless across all cultures.

 

References

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ayumi_H...

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Somehow I decided pursue my dream in the theater arts. To prepare for this, I resolved to dance consistently for about two years before starting on my training as an actor. In the book, Acting – First Six Lessons by Richard Boleslavsky, it is advised that one has to pursue dance/rhythmic gymnastics as majority of acting depends on the actor’s ability to control their body movement by the usage of relaxation and letting go of tension.


 


Needless to say, realistic acting is a dying art, especially now with digital effects and animation in a fast food fast social media culture. To put in time and dedication to a craft is not a common occurrence this advanced age of artificial intelligence. There is no direct extrinsic rewards as an actor, in fact, majority of it would depend on luck and opportunity by being at the right place at the right time.


 


Sometimes I ponder if I am letting go of more lucrative opportunities by pursuing an art that not many may actually appreciate, as most realistic plays are run in small Off-Broadway theaters with 50 seats or less, as Broadway is now running mostly cartoon Disney or movie franchises. Or if I would ever get on big screen and be taken seriously as an Asian actress instead of playing an exotic or comedic part.


 


I would say, real acting is when you actually don’t know if the person is acting or not. The moment you can tell the person is acting, it is a sign of a bad actor. It’s an invisible craft of masquerades. But I believe the best actors, are the most authentic human beings in real life. They are not liars, or con artists, but true pure artists with their souls intact, which they have declined for it to be traded with the devil, or sins, or distractions.


 


That the training of an actor is one of the highest elevated crafts a human being could aspire for in the perfection of god. It is a the total artistry on all levels – body, mind and soul, body movements and voice.


 


For to touch another person’s soul is an act of the divine indeed.

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