Beverly Jenness's Blog: Daily Struggles of an Unknown Author - Posts Tagged "loss"
A bittersweet year / can I get a 'do over'?
We are not even half way through the year and I have had all the negatives I can take. I ALWAYS attempt to put a positive spin on everything.
When we had our car wreck and I had to have back surgery to stabilize a crushed vertebrae, I used the time off to get the cover for book 2 done and publish "Stone City". I knew too, that late in the year or earlier next year, I would receive a small monetary settlement. A month after the wreck, our sewer backed up in the basement. I was able to use what funds the insurance company gave us to upgrade the entire basement. (Something we had been wanting to do for years!) If I had still been working, it would have been a logistical nightmare dealing with the insurance company, the restoration company and the contractors.
But now, I have no positive spin. I had to put my dog, Missy, to sleep May 1, 2017 at 3:47 am.
It was her birthday, she was 14 years old. We had been through a lot together. When I came home from the hospital, from the car wreck, she wouldn't leave my side. I am still emotionally raw and I know, in time, the pain will ease. I hope, in time I can find a positive spin, for me, in her loss. I know it was best for her, her heart was failing, and her lungs were filling with fluids. She had cateracts and couldn't see very well, plus arthritis. She took pain meds daily for it. I know it was the right thing for her. I know she is better off now. She isn't suffering any longer, but the hole in my heart will be along time in healing.
Thanks for letting me share her story.
When we had our car wreck and I had to have back surgery to stabilize a crushed vertebrae, I used the time off to get the cover for book 2 done and publish "Stone City". I knew too, that late in the year or earlier next year, I would receive a small monetary settlement. A month after the wreck, our sewer backed up in the basement. I was able to use what funds the insurance company gave us to upgrade the entire basement. (Something we had been wanting to do for years!) If I had still been working, it would have been a logistical nightmare dealing with the insurance company, the restoration company and the contractors.
But now, I have no positive spin. I had to put my dog, Missy, to sleep May 1, 2017 at 3:47 am.
It was her birthday, she was 14 years old. We had been through a lot together. When I came home from the hospital, from the car wreck, she wouldn't leave my side. I am still emotionally raw and I know, in time, the pain will ease. I hope, in time I can find a positive spin, for me, in her loss. I know it was best for her, her heart was failing, and her lungs were filling with fluids. She had cateracts and couldn't see very well, plus arthritis. She took pain meds daily for it. I know it was the right thing for her. I know she is better off now. She isn't suffering any longer, but the hole in my heart will be along time in healing.
Thanks for letting me share her story.
Daily Struggles of an Unknown Author
The daily struggles of an unknown author:
What I go through daily to promote my published book and to write my next one.
What I go through daily to promote my published book and to write my next one.
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