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Dreams

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Todays teaser is from Valencia with Love



“You will be okay, the Boss has made sure of that. He made sure if anything ever happened to him you would be safe and secure. Everything is yours,” he replies, his voice as calm and in control as always.
“He was my world, my life. Everything I did was for him and with him.” Tears still flow as I grip him tight, needing the warmth of someone close to me.
He whispers, “I can’t tell you this will be easy, Tommy, but with time things will get better. Time has a way of allowing you to remember the good times, rather than the loss. But I know he would have wanted you to carry on, to keep everything going.”
I listen to what he has to say before pulling away from him. Straightening my black jacket, I wipe my eyes and stare at him, trying to look in control, trying to be strong for Juan. Franco has been our driver for the six years I have been with Juan. He was there the first night I met Juan and has been a constant support for me over the years.
“Can I get you a drink?” he asks. His concern is totally for me, even though I know he must be feeling the loss as well.
“No, thank you, I think I need a little time on my own.”
“Are you sure? I don’t mind staying here tonight to keep you company.”
“Thanks, but you need to go home to your family. I want a little time alone with my thoughts.”
“Do you want me to tell Roberto to keep the club closed tonight?”
“Yes, please, as a mark of respect for Juan, and I need some peace, if only for tonight.”
“Okay, I’m sure people will understand.” He slaps my shoulder in moral support.
Rummaging in his coat pocket, he pulls out an old crumpled envelope and holds it out towards me. “The Boss gave me this two years ago and told me to give it to you if anything ever happened to him.”
I stare at the envelope, frozen as my heart pounds against my chest, unable to move. I wonder why he would have given it to Franco. I feel my hands sweat as I hesitate, my eyes locked onto the envelope, part of me reluctant to take it from his hands.
He coughs to clear his throat, trying to hide the sadness in his voice. “Please take it. He insisted I give it to you at this moment and I don’t want to let him down.”
Slowly, with my hand shaking, I reach and take it. As his fingers let go, I fumble with it in my hand.
“I will leave you alone; if you need anything call me.” He gives me a final hug before walking towards the door. The click of the door locking echoes in my ears through the stark emptiness of the room.
I drop the envelope on the sofa and walk over to the bar, pouring myself a large brandy. I need some courage before I open it. Swallowing a mouthful, I slouch on the sofa. After a few minutes, I pick up the envelope and stare at the words on the front. To my Boy. Tears well in my eyes; his voice reads the words to me in my head. I gulp as my throat dries
Goosebumps rise on my neck as I fumble with it, trying to decide whether to open it. I hear Daddy’s words in my head: What are you waiting for? Open it, Boy.
I slowly break the seal, pulling out the letter inside. It is hand written in his beautiful style, the same writing that has been on the many cards and gifts he has brought me over the years.
As tears run down my face, I take another large gulp of brandy for courage, and then I begin to read.
My Dearest Boy
If you are reading this, I can only imagine how heartbroken and alone you are feeling right now, as I know I would have felt the same to lose you and not have a chance to say goodbye. I wrote this letter in case for some reason I never had the chance to talk to you before I passed.
I know Franco would have given this to you just after my funeral as I instructed him. He will also make sure that you are safe and taken care of in the future as you continue life without me.
My sweetest Boy, I wish I could hug you tight and make you feel better, take away the hurt inside, but hopefully these words will help you feel the warmth of my hug.
From that first moment we met in the club you brought such happiness into my life, your sweet vulnerability made me want to protect you with all my heart. We have spent so many years together and each day you brought a smile to my face and a warmth to my heart, giving me a reason to live. You were my rock and soulmate, something I never want you to forget. Please remember all those special moments we spent together like the Fallas Festivals, the holidays, and even the times just cuddling together under our blanket on the balcony as we watched the storms riding across the sea outside.
The joy and pleasure you bring into other people’s lives just by being you is what makes you so special my Boy, it’s what I loved so much about you.
I know the months ahead will be hard for you, but I will be in your heart forever, along with all the good memories we made together.
In my will I have left everything I owned to you, to ensure you want for nothing. I’m not there to take care of you, but I have made sure you will be secure for the rest of your future.
This is hard and I know you would rather have me by your side more than anything, certainly more than the wealth you now have, because I know what you need more than anything is a Daddy to love and care for you.
I truly hope one day your heart will find another love as great as ours and someone that will care for you as I have. When the time is right and your heart is ready, may your new Daddy get as much pleasure from you as I have, my Boy. I truly hope you find somebody to love.
It won’t be easy to sleep well tonight as you will be alone in our bed. I have left you a new bear to cuddle, to keep you warm until you find another love.
Sweet dreams, my Boy. You will always be my angel.
Love always
Daddy xx
I fold the letter and drop it onto the sofa. I never thought I would ever cry so many tears as I have today; wiping my eyes, my body shivers. He knows me so well, I miss him so much. I drink the rest of the brandy. Why did he go on that flight without me? if I had gone with him, we would still be together now. That night the phone call came telling me the plane had crashed will haunt me forever. Nobody could ever replace what I had with him.

Valencia with love is currently on sale for $2.99 or available with Kindle Unlimited.

Merry Christmas to all my readers.

Thank you for reading my books and inspiring me to write some more.

New books coming in 2023. Keep an eye out here for more news in the New Year.

Wishing you all a wonderful time.

BJ

Let me tease you with the Gardener.

This short hot read is written in Tyler's POV as he obsesses about his new Gardener, daydreaming about what he would love the Gardener to do to him.

To find out if he gets what he wants, you will have to read it.

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Gardener


Blurb:
Tyler watches his gardener, Jacob, work from his window but what he wants is his hot body.

Tyler Finlay is a freelance film critic spending most of his time working at home, alone and bored. He often daydreams about his gardener Jacob.

Jacob has worked for Tyler for a few months now, and he is unaware that he watches him from the bedroom window while he works.

Tyler, the voyeur, often satisfies himself as he watches Jacob's hot body sweating in the sun. But he keeps his desires a secret unsure of how Jacob would react to his true feelings. One hot sunny day, a breeze blows the curtain allowing Jacob to glimpse Tyler naked, watching him through the window.

Will Tyler get what he has dreamed of so many times from the gardener?

After a long, long break, I am back in my writing chair and working on books to release in 2023.

I have just released a couple of Sweet & Spicy MM short stories called Two Christmases.
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Available with #Kindleunlimited.

Catch up with some of my characters, including Carter & Frank from Daddy Bear.

Enjoy. It's good to be back.

BJ.