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About a year ago, Ben Folds, Neil Gaiman, Damian Kulash and Amanda Palmer tried to write, compose, play and produce an album with 8 songs in 8 hours. They ended up making 6 songs in 12 hours, which is still quite impressive. You can find their album “8in8 – Nighty Night” here.

Why am I telling you this? Well, they asked their huge fanbase to take these songs and make something, anything with them. Beautiful and/or funny videos were created, translations recorded and other creative alterations made.

Today, in honor to Amanda Palmer’s birthday (happy fucking birthday, Amanda!), I’m giving you my version of their second song: Because the origami. It is a response to the original song and to fully understand what it’s about, I strongly advice you to listen to the original first. I recommend the following version, because it has one of the most beautiful fanmade videos: Because the origami.

And here is my answer:

Because the origami – a response

Because the Origami didn‘t work

You gave me dancing lessons

Because the dancing lessons made me bored

You bought me a guitar

Because you never saw the real problem

The hobbies couldn‘t work

Because it was as always about you

I couldn‘t do it right

But you never tried to understand

You wanted me to prosper

And the pressure mostly made me sad

you even called me fat

I did hear this

but

I need more time now

For myself and also for

my Origami

I had to run far because I knew

You‘d give them my description

Now my hair is shorter and I‘m tanned

I don‘t know who I am right now

I have to find myself

Because you thought you knew what I

Should be and how to thrive

You tried to plan my life

I did hear this, but

please

I need more time here

I fear my room

Because it‘s

Exactly

But not me

And if you ever hear this song

Know I got your love

But let me take the skills I have

To make paper doves

Or dance or sing, write songs

And promise not to teach me

But care for what I do and

In my own time reach you

I have heard this

know

I love you dearly

But you have to

ask about me

Or I‘ll be

angry.

Hope you liked it, thanks for reading!

Hey you out there! I just realized something important. I don't want to be somebody who blogs just to blog. Blogging is great if you have to say something important, but doing it for the sake of just saying something or advertising your stuff again – that's nothing I can and will do. Regular blogging is just not my cup of tea.

I made this blog to talk about my writing, but to be honest, writing is most of the time an isolated activity, boring for everybody but the writer. It's not as if you have something interesting to say about it every week or so…

The bestselling novelist Jackie Collins once said: "A lot of people talk about writing. The secret is to write, not talk." And that's what I was doing the last months. I finished another short story, continued or started three others, edited and extended a fantasy book I had written and am taking part in the (Inter)National Novel Writing Month. That means I wrote about 20k words in the last two weeks and am a bit behind schedule now (NaNoWriMo is about writing a Novel of 50k words in November).

To come to the end of this post: This blog is not dead, it's just not my top priority – which is and should be writing.

As a treat, I'll present you here the first ~600 unedited words of my NaNoWriMo-Novel. Have fun!

I'm small, nearly childlike. Easy to overlook in a crowded room like this. Easy to underestimate. I would carelessly bet half the gold in my pocket, that nobody in this tavern knew who I was. And I would bet the other half of that gold, that everybody had heard about me. I'm Haven. Which is my name and, you could say, my profession.

This tavern is on a fourthworld, so it's pretty far away from the main action in our universe. Not many travelers from firstworlds stray that far and the only ones I recognize are from this axis' firstworld. Every seventhworld bumpkin can recognize a cross-axis traveler but not many people are able to recognize another traveler's origin, which is one of my lesser talents and quite handy. You recognize travelers because they're more there than normal folks. Every time you cross the Mediani, your aura gets more present. It's hard to explain if you haven't seen it. I miss the Mediani, but there's a job to do and I won't leave Aer-4 before it's finished. One way or another.

I took another sip from my mug of crystal clear water. Another advantage of my looks: A small girl with short, boyish hair and big eyes can order water in a tavern without the barkeeper spitting in it before serving. I had already finished my meal and was getting drowsy. About a week ago, I had still been on Aer-1, where the contract was made. Traveling from there to Aer-2 and further to Aer-3 and now Aer-4 had been surprisingly easy, but nevertheless exhausting.

The worlds on the Aer-axis consist mostly of high Mountains, sharp Rocks, steep Cliffs and a few oceans in between. This far out on the axis, there wasn't a single flat place which wasn't human made.They don't even have a word for calm or windless here, because it just never happens. The whole transportation business is reduced to the Rokh, really big birds the size of the dragons on Fyr-3 if you have ever been there. The Aer use the male birds for cargo and the faster female birds for messages and traveling. Once you get used to it, it's quite comfortable and their thick feathery coat is keeping you warm.

But no matter how comfortable, traveling is still tiring and the Gates hadn't been that easy to find at all. Still, I was on time, nothing you could say about my customer.

I let my eyes wander about the other patrons. Most were males, which wasn't surprising. This was a trading post and merchants as well as their guards and aviators were traditionally male. On my way here I had been to another outpost where nearly everybody was female. You may have guessed it already: Messengers and their aviators where traditionally female.

The dominating color was stone gray, since the most worn fabric was Rokh leather, which turned gray over time. The men had braided colorful feathers in their long hair, which needed getting used to. If you were from the Aer folk, you could recognize tribes, status and homeworld from the braids and feathers. The merchants, at least the richer ones, had brown leather outfits like my own, which clearly were from their firstworld or even from another axis. Normally I'm not the one for leather, but it was too windy for my normal clothes. You needed at least leather or even fur to keep warm against the chilling wind.

Today's sunday – but no normal sunday. It's sample sunday! If you haven't heard of it before, let me give you a short explanation: Sample Sunday is a twitter experiment where authors blog a sample of their work with the hashtag #samplesunday (usually on sundays of course ). So if you want to find other samples, head to twitter and search for #samplesunday.

This sample is from the last story in my short story collection "Ficitonal Times – A fabulous anthology of wondrous stories" called "Ripples and waves":

Ripples and waves on the surface of time. It was no river but an ocean and man not more than a grain of sand in a current as strong as the gulf stream and as able to escape the flow from past to future as the named grain of sand.

But time is not static and when something equivalent to the polar caps melted, the current changed. Not for long and not much, but there are about seven billion people on our small and lonely planet and somebody had to be there (or better: then) when it happened. This one seven billionth of humankind, this fracture of a chance of one in a million, was me.

There are times and places when I wish more than anything I ever wished for that somebody else would have taken my place. And then I remember the moment it happened and I'm sure that I wouldn't have changed a thing even if I could.

Clary was my childhood sweetheart and since I was an only child she took the place of the sister I never had too. We were inseparable and everybody was joking that we would without doubt marry when we were of age. We stayed close during elementary school and it looked as if it could go on like that forever. I loved her joyful and creative nature and she needed me to keep her on the ground. At least that's what I think. I don't know what exactly she saw in me, but with her, everything seemed possible. Until the day when her parents died in a car crash. Naïve as I was I thought she would live with us now, but her mother's sister insisted on taking her. I knew that she was scared of her uncle and wasn't too fond of her aunt either, but when you're ten, nobody asks you what you want.

She stayed in my class, which I was glad about, but nevertheless slowly slipped away from me. She had to go to school by bus now and had to go home directly after school. We met a few times after school, but not as often as before. That times got fewer and fewer and she never went back to being her joyful self. Suddenly we didn't know what to talk or do with each other. I had tried to comfort her after her parents death but there was an invisible and unspoken wall in her, I wasn't able to pierce.

When puberty hit, she naturally put up all the bad habits most kids try at least once. She started to smoke and drink and when I saw her in the breaks, she and her friends were always surrounded by older boys. It looked as if her aunt and uncle lost interest in her because suddenly she didn't have to go home after school anymore. I saw her hang around with her peers in a dirty corner next to the sport field for hours but didn't dare to ask to join them. She still said hello and her friends never made fun of me – which gave me the hope that she still felt something for me and would start talking to me again. But soon all she cared for were parties. The boys from our year were never invited so I never attended one, but Monday morning usually saw her wasted and she still smelt of smoke and cheap booze. Her marks got worse and I feared that she would have to repeat that year, but she didn't.

Years passed and she grew more and more beautiful. I still believed that I knew her better than anybody else and that's why I was sure that I was the only one to notice that her joy became a facade and that her smile and laughing were a mere mask, she hid behind.

A few weeks later, I was on my way home from gramps, I saw her waiting with some friends on the sidewalk in front of our school. I slowed down and stopped because I didn't want to pass them on my bike. They hadn't noticed me yet and while I was unsure what to do, a dirty white car stopped next to them and she got in after saying good bye to her friends. That's when I recognized her uncles car, which I hadn't seen in years. They drove past me without noticing and I saw him put his big hand on her thigh, just where her skirt ended. The only reaction I certainly saw, was her closing her eyes but I'm sure that her lower lip trembled too. I stood there, struck, and felt worse than I had ever felt before. Unwanted pictures and thoughts entered my mind and I felt utterly helpless and furious. Furious about a world which tried with all its might to crush the beautiful flower Clary was. That night I got no sleep at all and next day in school, I wasn't able to meet her eyes. The night after my nightmares started and in the morning I was convinced that I had to help her, even if I didn't know how yet. For the first time in months, I tried to talk to her, but she could still read me as I could read her and something must've shown, because she started to avoid me.

My grades dropped nearly as low as hers because learning didn't come as easy as before with my mind always occupied with thinking about her and the situation I imagined her to be in. That year she didn't pass the class and I only barely did. After summer break she had to repeat the year and without being in the same class anymore, she as good as vanished from my life. Maybe that is what I should have let happen, but I still felt that strong bond we once shared and I couldn't. I made crazy plans to rescue her but never dared to put one to action. Another year passed and with a hard and cold winter came her seventeenth birthday. I soon learned that she was to have a big party in the basement of her uncle's house. I didn't get an invitation but even if I had, I wouldn't have come. Not into that house.

But in opposition to my intention, I couldn't bear to stay home on that evening. I decided to make something like an honorary remembrance walk and to visit all the places where we had shared our happiest moments.

There was the tree with the big hedge around where we had built our secret fortress, there was the playground where we had spent whole afternoons building sand castles, there was the small shop which got all our pocket money and the well where we ate all the candy from that shop. It made me happy and more calm than I had been for a long time. The night became somewhat surreal and maybe me wrapping myself in my past caused what happened later. I lost all feeling for the time and only my constant walking kept me warm. It was one of the coldest winters I could remember and after I couldn't think of anymore places in walking distance, I went to the last place on my imaginary list. There was only one winter colder than this one. We were seven and her eighth birthday was the only time we could ever ice-skate on the river. I went down to the shore and was slightly disappointed to see flowing black water with only a little ice attached to the stones of the shore. I crouched down and broke a small piece of ice from the water's surface. The water was incredibly cold. Cold enough to make me sure that it would freeze completely in a few days time if the weather stayed like that. I broke the small piece into even more pieces when I caught a movement in the corner of my eye. The moment I turned my head I knew that the white-clad person who fell from the bridge next to me was Clary. I watched, now even more helpless, her fall. Her long blond hair waved in the air and she tumbled over and over, like a puppet on her way down. Everything seemed to slow down and a short moment before her seemingly endless fall ended in front of me with a huge splash in the black, icy water, our eyes met. It was only the tiniest part of a second and even though it was dark, I think I was able too recognize relief and regret.

Without thinking I threw away my coat and my boots and dived after her…

To be continued in "Fictional times – A fabulous anthology of wondrous stories" by Christian Abresch – available on amazon and smashwords.

Today the great INDIE summer read giveaway starts!

Katja (@katjarinne) from coffeemugged is organizing this awesome event from today on until the 31st of July. She will give away (means: you can win) over hundred books, including my own, so what are you waiting for?

Check out the giveaway here:

Good luck and have fun!

I just released my anthology of short stories on smashwords! Never heard of smashwords before? Even without this post, you certainly would have – sooner or later.

They say about themselves: Smashwords is an ebook publishing and distribution platform for ebook authors, publishers and readers. We offer multi-format, DRM-free ebooks, ready for immediate sampling and purchase, and readable on any e-reading device. For readers, Smashwords provides an opportunity to discover new voices in all categories and genres of the written word. (smashwords.com)

If you're an ebook-reader, you may want to check them out because they distribute books in every possible format (even txt, if you miss the good ole times).

If you're thinking about self-publishing your writings, they have a very handy style guide with foolproof instructions and will furthermore distribute your works to different retailers, including iTunes. I can recommend this free guide above all other  I came across, no matter if they were from Amazon's direct-publishing or from other bloggers. In fact, even if you plan to publish your ebook for the Amazon Kindle, you may want to check this guide out first.

I did an interview about my writing process, inspiring other writers and how it all started. If you ever wanted to get insight in how it's done, this may be interesting for you. Additionally, you can ask your own questions and make this interview even more interesting.

Read my interview on Whohub

Hello and welcome!

This blog is dedicated to the short stories I write. Some of them are, from today on, available on Amazon (USA/World, UK, Germany)!

'Fictional Times – A fabulous anthology of wondrous stories' is a bundle of eight short stories published for the Amazon Kindle but works with other e-book readers or the Kindle apps for iphone/android just as well.

The collection's eight stories more or less revolve around the concept of time (time travel, reincarnation, immortality, …) in contemporary or science fictional settings.

Here's the table of contents:

The sleep
To never die…
Time traveling gone wrong
Time and again
Starseeds
Last one standing
Last Christmas
Ripples and waves

Stay tuned!