Macky Cruz's Blog

In fabulous news, I got a library card in October! I can now borrow up to five books from anywhere in Dublin where there’s a public library. This also gives me access to BorrowBox where I can rent five titles (audiobook or ebook). It’s been a long-time dream of mine…

I woke up today with an uncharacteristically yellow brightness because it was a Monday but I didn’t have to work. I have plans of attack in place, write in the morning, gym in the afternoon, read in the pockets of time remaining outside of keeping myself alive. But there was…

I’m smack dab in the middle of pre-menstrual mini-spiral week, clutching onto the last threads of that fleeting clear-headedness I was just flexing to a friend beginning of this week. I had so many realizations this Monday about wanting to get an education in Dublin instead of going back home,…

As of last month, I’m a free agent, and it does mean whatever you think it means, although it probably doesn’t mean what you think it means for me. Look, upon my return from a very short trip to the relatively warmer London, the Dublin chill and rain blasted into…

I streamed tonight because I didn’t want to but I needed to finish the last lap of the novella. Last scene and as expected I’m procrastinating like hell. This is so expected of me! But now at least I got the pipes laid down today, though I still need to…

Things are being shaken up, in ways I can’t talk about yet, and it’s terrifying the shit out of me. The greatest thing recently is that it is summer in Dublin and if you only ever see Dublin in this light, there’s really no leaving this place. I’ve been in…

Let me tell you all about how I installed Instagram to promote my novel during the Philippine Book Festival 2025 and how I quickly descended back into scrolling hell like it was yesterday. Sneaky motherfucker! Well, that was the long and short of it. I still need to schedule maybe…

It’s Wednesday and I haven’t written for 5 days because I’m terrified of how to start the second scene of the novella I’m overhauling. But yeah, through some self-trickery and grit I managed to squeeze some blood from a stone, 287 words in 30 minutes, in the only writing session…

We’ll just write about it. Mondays are historically stressful, and I feel like my body has some hardwired resistance at having to be on for work, or for anything outside its own desires. Today’s big R resistance was so large, both for writing and working, that I let my period…

I woke up later than desired today, but I’m still reeling from the monthly blood bath so I say it doesn’t count. I made myself a sandwich I’ve been timing to make in the shortest amount of time. I’ve been fixated on it for two weeks now. [Skip to the…