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Silence isn't some conspiracy.  Holidays into just trudging along, wondering if the Order of Wen the Eternally Surprised is using me as their current time suck victim most days.

Having to type a disgusting amount of edits into the laptop and saving my "good spine" hours for that instead of blog posts.  Pages look like the Crazy 88 after the Bride got done with them.  Or Maki with the Zen'in for a more current reference!  Actually trying to catch up on last year's anime right now too...if you haven't watched Frieren, watch Frieren, second season currently ongoing.  It's like a beautiful soul hug.  Fantasy based from an elf's POV.  Highest RR recommendation possible.  English Dub is very good too and I'm pretty sure is on Netflix at the moment, so easily available.

So...rewrites are on the tail end, next up is starting the second half of the novel (should hit 100k words by the time rewrites are done).  Same as last couple posts despite the trudging, but we have trudged, I promise, lot of pig shit to dodge on them peasant trails, okay?  Dreading going through the forty pages of the next chapter I know I'm mostly going to trash...going to be so much better though, like lightyears of improvement, but urgh.

Your tease:

“You—youthink Brother will propose?  Tonight?!?”Victoria couldn’t hold back a squawk.

If I don't post another one of these in the next couple months, it's just more trudging (hopefully not all on rewrites, but the back half as well).  Oh, I started Baldur's Gate 3 finally.  So that's my other entertainment at the moment.  Human Sorcerer just like my DND days...almost 3 decades ago...fuck I'm getting old.  Gale is kinda pointless to the party, the poor bloke.  Have had aggressive Gith domination sexy time, don't judge!

Just reworking what I've already wrote because I'm not happy with it...for THE SECOND TIME, no biggie.  Not driving me insane or anything.  Or killing my spine since it's all being typed back into the laptop...

What was there was unacceptable and this is 10x better, but...yeah, feeling pretty disgruntled by how much time these mistakes (also known as pain induced flippancy or "we'll add it in post") cost me.  We're talking two months just on rewrites at this point.  Granted its a 300 page novel and counting...then the next chapter I've already had some realizations on and...will be seriously reworking it too.  Haven't even checked to see what can be saved and will need to be tossed.  I'm basically changing where characters are in a certain room, so they won't be able to comment on different conversations they were previously part of or WILL, some lines might be transferable with a little tweak or two, but...yeah, whole atmosphere will kick it up a notch.

After that we're luckily into blank page country once again and the last half is all the juicy awesome stuff I planned to write it for in the first place anyway...

Actually this chapter I'm reworking and being so picky about is also super juicy and I think some of you will start squeeing like fourteen-year-old kpop fans over a certain revelation, but ya know...the next bit is even better than that!

So there!

Consider this your "happy holidays" message as well!

Bah humbug!

From "Vicky von Welf and the Maximus Masquerade": 

If she had learned anything about mundanes,it was that they were always calling law enforcement over the absolutely smallestmisunderstandings!  No, officer, I don’thave a strobe light in my backyard. Really?  Airplanes?  Three of them?  But no one crashed, right?

Alive and stick kicking.  Well...not kicking.  My brain is telling me that's a quote from a movie, one moment while I search it...and it's from Wild Wild West, why haven't I successfully forgotten that whole disaster by now, brain?!?

What have I been up to?  I'm stuck in edit hell.  Preemptive edit hell.  The worst of edit hells.  The Vicky novel needed a facelift and I've been going through and rewriting various scenes, mostly having to do with Heinrich Welf and Tyson and giving Danielle and Juliette some time too since I know those characters so much better now after writing Seismic Semester.

Or at least that was last month, now I'm into what I wrote early this year while in all that pain and just...everything is a mess.  I think I mentioned this in the August post, but when I was writing this 100 something pages I'm reworking now, it wasn't just the pain that was the biggest obstacle, but the exhaustion and brain fog of not being able to remember what I wrote two, even one week earlier and just being too tired to go back and look for it with the attitude of "I'll fix it later".

Well...it's later.

So that's what I'm doing, fixing all of that.

THE AMOUNT OF RED ON THE PAGES IS TERRIFYING!!!

And I'm adding new writing on top of that, so some pages the whole back is covered too, even on to the next page.

PAST RR IS SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!

Only 50 more pages of this to go...

*whimper*

Then I have to type it in...

FUCK YOU SO MUCH, PAST RR!!!

I hate this month so much.  Birthday blues.  Brain no workie from heat fatigue.  Was doing some great work on the Vicky novel before I cracked, but I have to switch my whole sleep schedule around so I can work during the night when it's bearable and it's just not possible to do for longer than 10ish days at a time.  Plus, I'm not exactly a college student any more.  Good news:  no appointments for a month straight, so hopefully I can get back into a groove.  Though no promises I won't spend a a few days binging Ghost of Yotei.

Heck, let's do another round of quickfire game reviews...

Star Wars Outlaws = 6.5.  (Huge Star Wars fan growing up, but didn't connect with the feel of this one.  I'm not a huge stealth game fan and the MC is just so weak that's pretty much all she can do.  Which, is thematic, but it wasn't fun!  Also my usual open world, too long complaints going, especially since you have to grind factions against each other and it's the same stuff over and over.  Great world feel though, I'll give it that.)

Jedi Fallen Order = 7.5.  (Played this on PS4 when it released, but got the worst flu of my life just before the Dathomir boss and when I came back a month later I just did not remember how to play and got trashed over and over and moved on.  Back then I probably would've given it a whole point more, but it really felt it's 5 year age now, with how clunky and unresponsive everything was and having to deal with loading times out of nowhere reminded me why I hated them.  Story is lots of fun and, unlike Outlaws, Cal's power curve feels very satisfying, especially since...)

Jedi Survivor = 8.5.  (Everything about the first game but better!  You start off exactly with the skills you left off in the first game and then keep gaining new ones, including the Crossguard Style, which was so fucking fun.  I'm gonna parry everything and then cleave half your health away, so take that!  There's also fast traveling between meditation points, which is worth half a point on it's own.  Three complaints:  1) some creatures have one shot kill attacks and that's so fucking cheap, especially since they lock on you half the time despite you dodging.  2)  There's a Vader fight where you're given a whole new character out of nowhere that's miserable instead of epic.  3)  The twist 3/4ths of the way through the game was obvious and I really preferred the story and villains beforehand.)

Metaphor Re Fantazio = 7.  (Given my love of Persona, I'm surprised I disliked this as much as I did.  Characters were not my favs, music was bland, twist was obvious.  I think this is a victim of the post Clair Obscur world where traditional turn based RPG just feels boring at this point.  There's also not much build variety, like...the Royal Archetypes are the best classes, so every character needs to go for it and the MC gets his for free with the most OP move in the game handed to you, so...build around that champ!  Enemy variety was also just largely recolored monsters over and over.  The Dragon Temple was a miserable dungeon that went on and on and on and on.  The plot was forced and often a childish take on it's themes.  It literally makes your characters feel sorry for a child murderer who was feeding children to a monster.  Like, one of your companions defends this villain multiple times and I'm just like...they fed kids to a monster!  There's no defending that!

RoboCop, Rogue City = Special Ranking, 7.5 out of 7.5  (That's right, this game knows what it is, it ain't going for no perfect ten and I love that about it.  I was RoboCop making scumbags exploded with my OP machinegun pistol for 25 hours, absolutely glorious!)

God of War Ragnarök = 9.  (You can't deny the quality of this game is a massive step above so many others you'll play.  It's a fifty hour cinematic experience.  But it wasn't nearly perfect like it's predecessor.  In some ways, I could drop it down to 8, but again, that quality.  It looks amazing, it sounds amazing, the combat can be so engaging.  But man...those Atreus sections.  Walk down a hallway, do a quick arrow puzzle, repeat, repeat, repeat.  I know why they did it, because it's what let you get familiar with the Norse Gods, but it was dull and the whole time I wanted my Blades and my Axe back.  More proof yet again that when you have two plotlines, they need to be equal or you really start resenting the lesser.  Other knocks:  story wise the characters did not have arcs, they had switches.  The Valkyries were so much cooler than the Berserkers, no contest.  Ragnarök itself and the Odin and Thor boss battles were letdowns.  Actually, most of the boss fights were kinda weak, I especially hated that if you died you didn't start from the beginning, but got full health and rage at a later stage in the fight, basically trivializing it.  Had it happen with Heimdall and Thor both and I was so bummed out.  At least let me fuck up a few times first before you ask if I'm a noob that needs a training wheel!

How are you playing all these games, RR?  Uhh...I basically haven't read a fiction novel, and have watched barely any TV since March, get off my back!

Ass Creed Valhalla = 2.5.  (Had to be lower than Veilguard, which at least had passable combat and was pretty.  This was a left over from my PS4 that's been on the shelf for 5 years.  I figured some type of palette cleanser after God o War was fair to whatever came after and it was another Norse game, so I gave it a go.  Every open world complaint I have about modern games X 10.  I only lasted 13 hours before tapping out, basically finished the first "zone" then watched some reviews that said the game was the same thing I'd just done over and over about a dozen times and it would take 70 hours to finish, so...no.  No thank you.  You were bland and boring at 13 hours, 70 hours would put me in a coma)

Diablo 4 = 8.  (I don't know what this game was like at launch, I hear it was pretty bad, and I know ARPG fans are some crazy bastards that want to have 80 hours of content every week, month after month, year and year, with numbers getting bigger and bigger, but I haven't been that guy for a long time and as a dude that loved Diablo 2, just played through Diablo 3's story + expansion on the cheap and it was fine, I had a blast getting to play a necromancer again.  Named Welf, of course.  Moira, not Heinrich.  BAMF's only in the hellscape.  Played through the story, expansion, grinded to Torment 4 with all Ancestral gear.  Scratched that ARPG/MMO one-more-dungeon-then-I'll-turn-it-off itch.  It's hot, it's miserable, I said fuck it and played Diablo for 12 hours a day this week and yeah, totally recommend it.  Now...once you get to where I got, Mythical drop rates are fucking bullshit.  I have my limits and beating bosses a thousand times for one helmet is the limit.  There's also not much else to do...it needs more of an endgame than the whole Pit system it's got (called the Artificer's Pit btw, ha!) and I can see how the seasons probably don't change enough season to season, but like...I'll come back for the second expansion and will happily enjoy another week of grinding experiencing the new story and seeing what new systems they've added, maybe with a sorceress named Boomworm this time around!).

GAMES STILL ON THE TO PLAY LIST:  Baulder's Gate 3, Cyberpunk, Mass Effect Legendary Edition, Warhammer Rogue Trader, Death Stranding 1 and 2, Kingdom Come 2, Final Fantasy 16, Final Fantasy 7 Rebirth or whatever the second one is called, Elden Ring.  And Ghost of Yotei in 15 days and 4 hours according to my preorder!

Anyway...one month of editing into new pages, here we go!

Finished up the second side of my RFA last week and I'm feeling about as amazing as I get.  Haven't felt this good since before I hurt myself at physio.  Really highlights how much I've been struggling these last few months.  So much so that I'm actually worried about how bad what I wrote during that period is going to look once I dive fully into this readthrough/edit on MAXIMUS MASQUERADE.
Pain can be really insidious in a lot of small ways that have nothing to do with "ouch".  The exhaustion and brain fog of it is something those that haven't experienced chronic pain probably don't imagine, but they are just as utterly crippling as spikes flaring in your back.  Now, with this nerves burned out...it's literally like a switch got flicked.  Not just the pain gone.  Better all around.  More energy.  More optimism.  Ready to tackle problems and chores and all 200 pages piled up on my desk.
Was very tired, very depressed, and not happy with anything I wrote...well, a couple scenes were fun.  All glory to Mama Welf!  The biggest problem of it is that when a bad mood bleeds into King Henry then he's just extra cynical and biting, but when it's Vicky...that doesn't really work and I need to go through and take the optimism and energy I have now and really scrub those pages.  Of course, given how miserable I was...maybe those pages aren't as bad as I think they are and, truthfully, wouldn't be even the hundredth time I'd written a first draft, thought it was completely shit, and then immediately turned it around with a "FUCK AM I GOOD!!!"
Recap:  feeling better, have energy, plan to use it on editing and then more new stuff!

And boy do I need it!

So...probably won't be much new writing for the rest of the month.  I've printed everything I have so far for MAXIMUS MASQUERADE and WAR TO END ALL WARS to get some editing done while I'm stuck in bed.  Also been busy the last month doing research on MOST OBVIOUS TRAP, lot of books and documentaries on East and Southeast Asian history and mythology.  Currently working my way through "A History of Japan" by Mason and Caiger for a very technical dry read and "Tokyo Vice" by Adelstein for a slight more sketchy source of inspiration (anyone that can dispute his story is dead and its kinda sus, but hey, great story!  looking forward to checking out the HBO show when I finish).  Have a massive list/pile to get through.  If anyone has any recs for that area of the world, by all means throw me a comment below.

Obviously I've got a better understanding of it than probably the vast majority of Americans (fuck you, RR, I LIVE on TikTok, I'm WAY more "knowledge" than YOU about the TRUTH!!!) and did some work, especially on the mythology side, when creating the Vampire Divines and their backstory, but I'm always interested to learn more and fill in my (still massive) gaps.  Got a recent fan mail from a Bulgarian pointing out they study English starting in the 4th grade, so...my bad on Valko's linguistic troubles.  Although...if the whole of Bulgaria has to take a hit just so I can make that wonderful "you sound like bitch in heat" joke...comedy = first, right?

Point is, I try, I fail, I purposely ignore the truth at times too.  Also Valko is a huge butcher job of a name.  Not the worst I've accidentally done, granted, since calling a Filipina girl Malaya is a bit on the point, but then we have people called America now, so...why not?  Also, Raj Malik means King King.  And there was that whole accidentally naming an EXTREMLY MINOR character after a Manson Family member...yeah...did that...changed it super quick!  She was actually named for my aunt (Leslie) and Von Houten means "forest" or something like that, not looking it up.  Which I think means it's all my grandmother's fault and I'm blameless.

I actually think naming Urban Fantasy characters is kind of a surprisingly difficult part of the genre, since there are only so many names in the real world, many of them very, very boring.  You only get so many Rick Browns, man!  Unlike my high school, which had an easy dozen Jennifers.  And the amount of German names I've looked through to figure out all the Welfs!  Meanwhile, I can name an elf Pougpaellieth and no one bats an eye, right?  So much easier!  Lucky epic fantasy writers!

Talk to you all in August, hopefully I'll be able to sit up for longer than half an hour by then.  Also currently playing Metaphor Re Fanzsomething, which is fantasy Persona and fun, but is also fantasy Persona, so...gameplay feels quaint in a post Clair Obscura world.  Watching the Bear Season 4...will refrain from making any comments on its quality to not repeat my effusive praise of Season 3 before it went absolutely nowhere.  Daredevil Born Again after that.  Reading?  New Penric and Des novella just released, yay!

Stay cool! (Fresno is only in the low 90s this week!  woot!)

It's a miracle!

My fault.  One of those oh it's a bridge chapter, no reason to expect it will be that long mistakes where it kept growing and growing.

Feel like I'm slightly short of the halfway mark.  Also very aware some scenes earlier in the novel now need at least partially rewritten since I've got some characters flip flopping quite severely, though granted, one of them forced the change upon me while I was writing a scene.  Might also cut here and there so we get to the main event quicker (this chapter being suspect number one), which I'm firmly into working on now.  Welf Gala here we come!

I have no doubt this novel will get hit with the "too slow" and "nothing happens" complaints, since it's all familial and political maneuvering without a single bit of violence.  Though I think Moira's tongue can cause more lasting harm to a person than any of her Constructs' fists and the novel is stacked with many revelations , both for the characters, the world, and um...all that lovey dovey stuff you'd never expect out of the Welfs.

My back is utterly horrible right now and I'm typing this very quickly since sitting up for longer than fifteen minutes without breaks is currently impossible.  Can't wait for the RFA next month!

Well, onto the next chapter, for now titled:  The Battle for Tyson Bonnie.

Alternate Title:  How Dare She Give Me A Pink Dress.

Writing when I can, catching up on the last 5 years of gaming on my rest days, still annoyed by appointments but they're not as overwhelming as when I was doing physio.  So...just in the grind.  Trying to ignore, ya know...the whole world since...fuck me, I guess I wasn't cynical enough about this species.

Pain's been worse and been better.  Still trying to get the insurance to give me MRIs with the hopes of launching me back down the surgery path, next round of RFAs are set to start at the end of July, so I'll need a week recovery for each side, but outside of that just trying to keep things chill as I delve into the Welf Gala proper.

Some really fun party crashers coming up I get to spend some time with...it's one of those moments where I wish I could film people's reactions when they read it.

Quick Fire Reviews on Every Game I've Played Since Diving Back In:

Mario vs Rabbids:  Spark of Hope = 7 (too easy, first game was better)

Unicorn Overlord = 9 (just what I needed for a tactical fantasy adventure)

13 Sentinels: Aegis Rim  = 8.5 (not much game to it, but the story was super fun to work through with plot twists galore)

Yakuza Like a Dragon = 7 (nothing great, nothing horrible, too long, which is a massive trend I've noticed, first game in the series I've played, so none of the big character moments hit for me)

Astro Bot = 9 (I'm not a platform guy, but haptic features were super fun)

Hogwarts Legacy = 7 (amazing first five hours exploring Hogwarts and Hogsmeade that just kinda becomes an open world game with too many quests and so so characters)

Midnight Suns = 7 (yikes dialogue, enjoy card battlers so...it's my jam)

Guardians of the Galaxy = 9 (this game was so much better than I was expecting, surprised to find out it sold so poorly, it's a blast of a 20 hours well spent)

Horizon:  Forbidden West = 7.5 (too long, too huge, the weapon upgrade aspect was a massive grind, killing big enemies was either boring based on OP freeze into spikes or just took forever chipping at health bars, how many siblings did I save in side quests?  A dozen?  Main quest was fun, but it was only 1/3 of the game) 

Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 = 10 (GOTY, my favorite game since at least God of War 2018, maybe the Witcher 3, still thinking about it, itching for DLC and Sequel and maybe even the first New Game Plus I've bothered with since Mass Effect 2, will be writing FM7 to its soundtrack)

Dragon Age Veilguard = 3 (i have never played a game, especially an RPG which we can admit trends towards more intellectual players, that thought I had a 50 IQ before.  MIND NUMBING.  Every bit of dialogue is exposition repeating itself over and over, I didn't hate some of the companions which is the best we can say about that, the romance was HR PG nonsense, it somehow made me look fondly on Mass Effect Andromeda in comparison, I guess it was pretty at least)

Spider Man Miles Morales = 7.5 (fun little appetizer focusing on smaller scale spider man stories)

Spider Man 2 = 8 (it makes you feel like spider man, moving through the city is fun, the plot had a few fun moments, boss battles had too many stages since they were just the same thing over and over, Peter was super boring, too much open world crap again)

Indiana Jones and the Great Circle = 8.5 (not what I expected gameplay wise, but once I coped, had a ton of fun, best Indiana Jones story since Last Crusade, Troy Baker killed the voice, Disguises are so OP they trivialize the game, again a lot of open world find 30 ancient dildos crap, no, really they totally look like ancient dildos!)

Ratchet and Clank Rift Apart = 8.5 (it's a very pretty Ratchet and Clank game and hey, it's only about 15 hours long!  It's a miracle!)

Just wanted to say I am back to writing, here and there, and the pain has returned to not-fun but manageable levels for me.  Physio is probably a thing of the past, since I'm scared of a repeat and just having that appointment every week and needing a couple days in bed to recover after was playing havoc on its own.

So, yeah, hoping for some boring normal over this summer and just tapping away at the phone pumping out new scenes.  Really enjoying the one I'm writing now, in fact...and the next one I get to introduce a new Welf for ya'll!