Dave Matthes's Blog - Posts Tagged "random"

Out of everyone I've ever had the pleasure (or displeasure, after all you can't please everyone) of sleeping with, there have been maybe...2 or 3 out of every 10 whom I could consider having at the very least felt some amount of love towards. And yes, it may have only lasted for the duration of said poon-pounding, but does that make it any less true? Does it make it any less real? How many times have you fucked any given person and silently thought to yourself: "I love you"...but when it comes time to actually say those words, how often are those words as genuine as the moment you originally conceived them? What exactly constitutes this for everyone? Because everyone is different, obviously, but obviously everyone who has yet to tap into the possibility that love is the pinnacle of emotion, be it temporary or conducive, and nothing more than a gap that is filled by the mind and NOT by the heart, everyone who has yet to consider that...what makes it any more potent for them?

One oddity I've noticed about myself is that I'm not a HUGE fan of reading; I see it as more of an obligatory exercise than a pastime. There are literally hundreds of books strewn about my room I've started but have yet to finish.

I'm not sure what it is, but I've noticed that I find more comfort in being surrounded by an infinite array of knowledge and imagination and mystery and horror and love and adventure and science fiction and science and all the genre's a mind can conceive, and being further blanketed by the mystery of never knowing the full picture of those "pictures", being left to wonder for myself...over having experienced them to their fullest limits.

Maybe one day I'll finish all those books, it is however unlikely. But just knowing they're there is enough for now.