Justine Dell's Blog

Promise
My sight is clearEternal hope sinks into my soul
You're the wind rushing over me, Lifting the hairs along my skin, Sweeping away all hurt, Filling me with glow, a determinationA devotion
Your passion lights me from withinYour affection lulls any painYour love fills me completely
Forever is my promiseAnd my promise is yours
~JD

The Storm
It’s the moment you realize how quickly you can be crushed.How rapidly you crumble.Love should be warmth and light.But this was so cruel, so swift.No time to stop and think. Consider. The words continue to spin around you, a tornado you can’t escape. Slashing your heart, bending and breaking your soul, your spirit.  Life tilts, uncomfortably. You question your worth. Stability.Your very happiness. You flick the tears away, suck in the soft sobs.
And pray for the end of the storm...

The Old, The New

It is done

Damaged, bent, and broken

Jagged pink lines scar my thoughts, my soul

My paper thin skin squeezes my body,
Flaking off like the paint from the hundred year old house down the lane

 My heart shrunken, shriveled with tattered veins

Each step more difficult than the one before

I know this day will be my last...

The peek of dawn appears on the glistening white horizon

Cheers and celebration flow into my ears, igniting something new, different.

Beats thrum through me, awakeni...

Let's just cut to down to the chase. It's almost a new year. It's time to do new things. Including reading. In light of this new an amazing year, I give you a gift:

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Now on to the regularly scheduled post for the new year. 
Wow.

2018.

Not too long ago I realized tha...

I am not broken
Why can't you see you are hurting me?
Why can't you see I'm not as strong as you?My thoughts and feelings are a raging river flowing through me. Your laughter and disdain coat me with lava, halting my emotions, searing every inch of me. Do you not respect my feelings? Me?Can you not see this is who I am? What I am? It's love or leave. Respect of walk away. Understand or go. 
So go. 

The End
I sit here, weak and drearyMy eyes swollen, dark and teary Each breath I take, tight and shakyThe wind feels like sand, coarse and breakingDid you know I would feel like this? It’s like the earth moved and I didn’tYet, I’m spinning out of controlWith a life that doesn’t have you in it. The sun no long wakens me early in the morningThe sounds of your voice no longer cradles meThat should’ve been my first warningDarkness rocks me to sleep now, its cold breath chills my bonesI wear loneli...

               Disburse darkness
          When evil overrides
     3 poor, humble people
Their lives shredded
                     and torn.

No need to cry little one -
     The sun will still
          shine bright.

               I'm sorry for your sadness
        &nb...

The weight is heavyThe burden unbearableThe results uncertain
Fight to breatheFight to liveFight to even die
How you wantHow you needHow you see
See the painSee the envySee the future
We will surviveWe will thriveWe will be free

     I walk into my rat-packed humble room.
     Oh, how I long to be elsewhere.
Wear walls
Grungy floors
Old paintings
     Every time I enter my room, I am intriguingly engulfed in it's horrendous boredom.
     I am a simple woman
Woes
Afflictions
Distractions
Problems
    They never seem to bother me.

I have two chairs here. Hopefully someone can share one with me someday.
I simply look out
     my eight panel window
&nb...

What is love? 

Love is an emotion, art, a state of mind, or even just a dream. 
Love is powerful.  Love is unconditional. Heart pounding. Earth shattering. Soul moving. 
Terrifying. 
Love is everything you thought you never needed but can't live without. 

It's the moment your chest compresses and heart shutters at the thought of them when they aren't by your side. 

It's the smile that crosses your face when you think of them.  It's the warmth and delight of a...