Hayden Winston's Blog

the universe is an endless mystery but people are all made up of blood, bones sinew and regrets maybe it’s my scorpio rising or my sagittarius moon talking but it all just feels like any other mythology filling our great and desperate desire to ascribe some reason to being still, I’ll let you tell me …

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you can make your art make obsecure literary references at brunch drip poetry when you speak but really all the people want are the deepest darkest parts of you splayed out for them to examine lurid tales of indiscretions I am a difficult person I am an endless void always hunting in the dark my …

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older now but no guarantees of growing any wiser less garrulous, much colder now with no respite on the horizon burn my love letters for warmth those words were soft and hollow basking nude in the sunlight gin-soaked sweat flowing from my brow the vultures feast on me like carrion licking my bones, until the …

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sculpt your effigies and burn mewant to choke on petrolfeel the flames pierce my skinquiet your conscience now my love, let’s sinkneeling in glory to all who came before ye empty prayers and curses whispered aloudin Greek, in Latin, in French – but it’s uselessnone of the saints, nor any of the angels beseechedcan save …

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wrote a poem for you can’t seem to find it now and there are mounds of history in this room to sort through the air is sick with it makes my stomach churn a bit oh well, the thought will have to count for something

The world is full of liars still, no amount of lover’s scorn will teach me lesson. you were no dewey paramour, and I no gentleman. holding hands for a moment – forever, this means nothing and yet everything. should have said goodbye, it was just easier to cause a scene, that’s how it’s always been. …

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Resources for those affected by the fires in and around the Los Angeles area

watching you surrender in this heat wears me out like a long day’s workwater trickling down my brow until it’s blinding never had a chance to repent, never took a breath to regretnot someone you’ll soon forgetlike nails digging into your skin, glorious agony how can you say you love me when you hardly even …

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watching you surrender in this heat, wears me out like a long day’s work,water trickling down my brow until it’s blinding. never had a chance to repent, or a breath to regret – not a moment you’ll soon forget, like nails digging into your skin, glorious agony. how can you say you love me when …

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grafyé rasin-andwèt ou blé épi an santwou-a pa ni fen ⚜️⚜️⚜️⚜️ clawing at the rootyour fingers blue and bloodythe pit is endless