Lalit Kundalia's Blog: Creations........!!!
July 11, 2013
Angels and Demons
Discliamer - Its not a story, its somethiing, that just came into my mind, and I simply wrote it down. I don't want to limit the scope of my writing so I accept whatever my soul feels should be scribbled down.
Every coin has two sides and so does every object in this universe have.
I wake up, I did not find my essential belongings in place, I search for it, I could not find it, and it’s irritating. I just realised I have bills pending to be paid, the due date approaching fast, I check my bank balance, it isn’t optimum, I get frustrated. I was awaiting an important result, it came out, I could not make it in spite of hard work and dedication, I am depressed. Walking on the sideway, I managed to get my new shirt torn up, caught up by the fast moving rickshaw, I have no one to blame, though it wasn’t my mistake, I feel agitated. I went to office, I just found the data on my computer turned corrupt, and I failed to take a backup, I am broken it was a week’s hard work. The intern whom I taught the basics of work, went up to the boss to reveal mistakes I unintentionally did in the past, which I wasn’t even aware of, I feel sick. My girlfriend calls me to pick her up for a movie, I denied, I have a lot of problems to fix, she says I am bad at handling relationships, I don’t have time for her, I feel betrayed. My boss asks me to boost my performance, he says I am slow and lack common intelligence and awareness, I feel demoralised. On my way back home, I found the grocery prices too high and my salary too low in comparison, I feel troubled. I see my best friend, hanging with my girl friend, making love with her, I feel back stabbed. I go home, I have food, I don’t feel like eating, not even I feel like sleeping, I feel chocked, I feel sick, I feel ill confident, I feel like running away.
We yearn to relieve ourselves from the day to day stress that we accumulate day in and day out, by ways that makes us feel out of this busy and stressful life. This happens with us every day, these circumstance or even smaller events than this adds up to our mental discontent, it may be money crunch, it may be job dissatisfaction, it may be broken relationships, it may be family issues, or it may also be idleness. This is the saturation point, when we hold the coin, the coin with two sides. We have to choose either of the side, the best possible, the one that makes us happy and contended.
I read somewhere and I do believe, there does not exist anything called Heaven or Hell. Like the coin, we human beings also have two sides of personality – The Angels and the Demons. The angels make us stronger and the demons do the opposite. The problem is we have to live with both of them, none can be ignored. It’s up to us, whom we make stronger, the angels or the demons. If we are the lock that holds, even the key lies in our hands, no one else can help us.
In this phase of discontent, our mind, mostly influenced by the demons within us, we strive for a solution that can bring peace, calmness and take us away, from this unending world of problems. Wait a second, step back and analyse – Am I looking for a solution or am I running away from this fear. I may run away today, I may escape today, I may fool myself today, but what if I have to face a similar circumstance tomorrow. Have I brought it a permanent solution to this or am I fixing the ceiling on my head temporarily. I hope you know what can a temporary fixing up of ceiling bring to us – Breakdown.
But, in spite of knowing this we run for temporary solutions, we search for something that can calm us, calm our senses, take us out of this world, works as an anti-depressant and makes us ignorant of this stress or frankly speaking responsibilities that we are not able to handle. The most easily and widely available solutions we find are –smoking, drinking alcohol, tobacco substitutes (the slow working poison) and the worst drugs like cocaine and heroin (the fast working poison).
What do these things do? – They are a kind of anti depressants and sensory up gradation drugs that works for a specific temporary time frame. This helps our sense organs work faster than before, better than our best and efficiently than ever. This make us feel stronger, efficient and powerful, you tend to understand things better and focus on haphazard things with ease. Everything around seems amplified and detailed. You have better concentration on things at hand, you don’t need push harder to grasp things critical to our mind. You start loving yourself, your personality and the way your mind works when you are under its dosage, you feel indomitable. This is why they say “It feels like heaven”. This is the moment you are trapped. It’s not these shitty things that we are addicted to, instead it’s the personality we attain after we intake this filth. Hence, the addiction isn’t external, instead it’s internal, that our mind has framed. We tend to be the same strong, intelligent and powerful person; we are addicted to the demons of our personality. This puts an end to a great myth, People say “The only solution to addiction is medicinal”, but let me ask them how can you treat something internal (addiction) with something external (medicines).
Sri Rabindranath Tagore rightly quoted – “Anything beyond limit is poison”, by intaking these drugs we push ourselves beyond our limits, we yearn to become what we are not meant to be normally.
Rose, the most beautiful flower, a flower with a lovely fragrance, a flower with utmost softness, a flower that signifies true and eternal love, we all love a rose, until we come across it’s thorns. It’s another example of angels and demons co-existing in the nature.
What happens when we are deprived of it? – Newton’s third law “Every action has an equal and opposite reaction”. The speed with which it upgrades our sensory capabilities, it does also hamper our normal sensory capabilities with the same force. While out of its consumption, we feel weaker, slower and lazier than our normal level, the level when we had not even consumed it for the first time. This strikes us hard, we cannot accept the same situations to come back in our life, the situation of depression, failure and frustration, This leads us to urge for these things with double the force, there is no other option visible to you. I hope you remember the basics of economics class - ”Demand attracts supply”, so with increase in responsibilities and work load, increases the consumption of this poison. I remember another theory of my basic economics class - “With increase in supply, the marginal utility of consumption decreases”, but the problem is that there is no substitute for this decrease in marginal utility. This is when you realise – “Once you come in, there is no looking back”
Stop, step back and analyse – Earlier you made you Angels weaker by opting for temporary solution, now don’t kill them by losing hope. Even in the storm filled sky with the darkest of the clouds you will find a silver lining in the sky that sparks the environment and battles the darkness. The worst thing about life is “Time and tide waits for none” and the best thing is “It’s never too late”.
Now since we have learned, how NOT to make our Angels weaker lets also know HOW TO make our Angels stronger or rather let’s try to find out what can possibly be a permanent solution unlike the temporary solutions -
Know Youself – The biggest problem we face today is that we actually don’t understand ourselves. Ask yourself Do you really know what is that one thing that makes you happy and contended, no matter what the circumstances are around. Are you really aware of the foot that fits every shoe? The pity is I don’t have the answer in your case, but the best part is that you yourself know it. It’s hidden deep inside your soul all you need to do is unleash it. And the only way is by talking to oneself and the best way is Meditation (the internal medicine for the internal disease). Wait I am not going into any big lecture on Meditation, I will keep that to you for self help.
Stop Comparing – I recently found out that the major reason for mood swings and my depression was comparison. Every time, I met my old friends or pals, automatically something inside ran the program of comparison and slowly it took a ended into feeling of worthlessness or ill confidence. “I have always been better than him in my academics, but then how come he cleared his exams before me, or how come he ended up into a times better job than me, or how come I am yet unemployed and he was picked up by a big 4”. Stop, step back, and analyse – Don’t think about how it used to be, think about how you want it to be after 2 years lets say. With time everything changes, promise yourself and believe everything will be at par after 2 years. Sitting back and regretting things won’t help “Stop Thinking, Start Reacting” very well quoted in “Who Moved My Cheese”. Robin Sharma in “The Monk who sold his Ferrari” even quoted – “Don’t be a prisoner of your past, rather be an architect of your future”.
Think thoughtfully – Every word we say, every letter we write and every thought of ours has an impact on our life and living. So be careful, step back and analyse, make sure your thoughts are creative, not destructive.
Every coin has two sides and so does every object in this universe have.
I wake up, I did not find my essential belongings in place, I search for it, I could not find it, and it’s irritating. I just realised I have bills pending to be paid, the due date approaching fast, I check my bank balance, it isn’t optimum, I get frustrated. I was awaiting an important result, it came out, I could not make it in spite of hard work and dedication, I am depressed. Walking on the sideway, I managed to get my new shirt torn up, caught up by the fast moving rickshaw, I have no one to blame, though it wasn’t my mistake, I feel agitated. I went to office, I just found the data on my computer turned corrupt, and I failed to take a backup, I am broken it was a week’s hard work. The intern whom I taught the basics of work, went up to the boss to reveal mistakes I unintentionally did in the past, which I wasn’t even aware of, I feel sick. My girlfriend calls me to pick her up for a movie, I denied, I have a lot of problems to fix, she says I am bad at handling relationships, I don’t have time for her, I feel betrayed. My boss asks me to boost my performance, he says I am slow and lack common intelligence and awareness, I feel demoralised. On my way back home, I found the grocery prices too high and my salary too low in comparison, I feel troubled. I see my best friend, hanging with my girl friend, making love with her, I feel back stabbed. I go home, I have food, I don’t feel like eating, not even I feel like sleeping, I feel chocked, I feel sick, I feel ill confident, I feel like running away.
We yearn to relieve ourselves from the day to day stress that we accumulate day in and day out, by ways that makes us feel out of this busy and stressful life. This happens with us every day, these circumstance or even smaller events than this adds up to our mental discontent, it may be money crunch, it may be job dissatisfaction, it may be broken relationships, it may be family issues, or it may also be idleness. This is the saturation point, when we hold the coin, the coin with two sides. We have to choose either of the side, the best possible, the one that makes us happy and contended.
I read somewhere and I do believe, there does not exist anything called Heaven or Hell. Like the coin, we human beings also have two sides of personality – The Angels and the Demons. The angels make us stronger and the demons do the opposite. The problem is we have to live with both of them, none can be ignored. It’s up to us, whom we make stronger, the angels or the demons. If we are the lock that holds, even the key lies in our hands, no one else can help us.
In this phase of discontent, our mind, mostly influenced by the demons within us, we strive for a solution that can bring peace, calmness and take us away, from this unending world of problems. Wait a second, step back and analyse – Am I looking for a solution or am I running away from this fear. I may run away today, I may escape today, I may fool myself today, but what if I have to face a similar circumstance tomorrow. Have I brought it a permanent solution to this or am I fixing the ceiling on my head temporarily. I hope you know what can a temporary fixing up of ceiling bring to us – Breakdown.
But, in spite of knowing this we run for temporary solutions, we search for something that can calm us, calm our senses, take us out of this world, works as an anti-depressant and makes us ignorant of this stress or frankly speaking responsibilities that we are not able to handle. The most easily and widely available solutions we find are –smoking, drinking alcohol, tobacco substitutes (the slow working poison) and the worst drugs like cocaine and heroin (the fast working poison).
What do these things do? – They are a kind of anti depressants and sensory up gradation drugs that works for a specific temporary time frame. This helps our sense organs work faster than before, better than our best and efficiently than ever. This make us feel stronger, efficient and powerful, you tend to understand things better and focus on haphazard things with ease. Everything around seems amplified and detailed. You have better concentration on things at hand, you don’t need push harder to grasp things critical to our mind. You start loving yourself, your personality and the way your mind works when you are under its dosage, you feel indomitable. This is why they say “It feels like heaven”. This is the moment you are trapped. It’s not these shitty things that we are addicted to, instead it’s the personality we attain after we intake this filth. Hence, the addiction isn’t external, instead it’s internal, that our mind has framed. We tend to be the same strong, intelligent and powerful person; we are addicted to the demons of our personality. This puts an end to a great myth, People say “The only solution to addiction is medicinal”, but let me ask them how can you treat something internal (addiction) with something external (medicines).
Sri Rabindranath Tagore rightly quoted – “Anything beyond limit is poison”, by intaking these drugs we push ourselves beyond our limits, we yearn to become what we are not meant to be normally.
Rose, the most beautiful flower, a flower with a lovely fragrance, a flower with utmost softness, a flower that signifies true and eternal love, we all love a rose, until we come across it’s thorns. It’s another example of angels and demons co-existing in the nature.
What happens when we are deprived of it? – Newton’s third law “Every action has an equal and opposite reaction”. The speed with which it upgrades our sensory capabilities, it does also hamper our normal sensory capabilities with the same force. While out of its consumption, we feel weaker, slower and lazier than our normal level, the level when we had not even consumed it for the first time. This strikes us hard, we cannot accept the same situations to come back in our life, the situation of depression, failure and frustration, This leads us to urge for these things with double the force, there is no other option visible to you. I hope you remember the basics of economics class - ”Demand attracts supply”, so with increase in responsibilities and work load, increases the consumption of this poison. I remember another theory of my basic economics class - “With increase in supply, the marginal utility of consumption decreases”, but the problem is that there is no substitute for this decrease in marginal utility. This is when you realise – “Once you come in, there is no looking back”
Stop, step back and analyse – Earlier you made you Angels weaker by opting for temporary solution, now don’t kill them by losing hope. Even in the storm filled sky with the darkest of the clouds you will find a silver lining in the sky that sparks the environment and battles the darkness. The worst thing about life is “Time and tide waits for none” and the best thing is “It’s never too late”.
Now since we have learned, how NOT to make our Angels weaker lets also know HOW TO make our Angels stronger or rather let’s try to find out what can possibly be a permanent solution unlike the temporary solutions -
Know Youself – The biggest problem we face today is that we actually don’t understand ourselves. Ask yourself Do you really know what is that one thing that makes you happy and contended, no matter what the circumstances are around. Are you really aware of the foot that fits every shoe? The pity is I don’t have the answer in your case, but the best part is that you yourself know it. It’s hidden deep inside your soul all you need to do is unleash it. And the only way is by talking to oneself and the best way is Meditation (the internal medicine for the internal disease). Wait I am not going into any big lecture on Meditation, I will keep that to you for self help.
Stop Comparing – I recently found out that the major reason for mood swings and my depression was comparison. Every time, I met my old friends or pals, automatically something inside ran the program of comparison and slowly it took a ended into feeling of worthlessness or ill confidence. “I have always been better than him in my academics, but then how come he cleared his exams before me, or how come he ended up into a times better job than me, or how come I am yet unemployed and he was picked up by a big 4”. Stop, step back, and analyse – Don’t think about how it used to be, think about how you want it to be after 2 years lets say. With time everything changes, promise yourself and believe everything will be at par after 2 years. Sitting back and regretting things won’t help “Stop Thinking, Start Reacting” very well quoted in “Who Moved My Cheese”. Robin Sharma in “The Monk who sold his Ferrari” even quoted – “Don’t be a prisoner of your past, rather be an architect of your future”.
Think thoughtfully – Every word we say, every letter we write and every thought of ours has an impact on our life and living. So be careful, step back and analyse, make sure your thoughts are creative, not destructive.
June 14, 2013
A walk with an Angel.....!!!!
Some stories, some moments, no matter how incomplete they be, but still are worth sharing. Though I don’t remember a lot of my early childhood, but somehow these moments are well retained.
I was around five years old, my childhood had just started to blossom. The images are a bit faded but as beautiful as the feelings were at that moment. My only outhouse adventure comprised of school visit and rare grocery shopping with mom, because I was a problem kid at that time, with never ending monkey business.
Concerned of my future, my parents admitted me to a play house-cum-coaching for kids. It was near my home, just a lane behind, no busy roads, most people on the way knew me, hardly a five minute walk. Though, the classes were meant for both education and play, but from the very first day I self-employed myself with only the latter one.
One fine day, the classes ended earlier. I had to go home alone, so I was happy about being independent. But, concerned of the pranks that I might do if I went alone, the teacher paired me with a girl, who lived near my house, on my way back. I had seen her before but we never had a talk.
I was wearing a t-shirt with half sleeves, and short pants that barely covered my thighs, and my new micky-mouse shoes. As universally common to boys, one side of my shirt was carelessly un-tucked and my hairs untidy. She, on the other hand, wore a beautiful lemon dress, upto her knees, matching slippers and two lemon clips to avoid her hairs from doing their freelancing business. Seeing her idealness, I limited my pranks on my way back home.
She offered me a cookie. I denied out of hesitation, as she had only one. In spite of my denial, she broke it into two and re-offered me one-half. This time I accepted it, again out of hesitation. I saw a smile running on her face creating a cute indentation, a dimple, which in turn brought a smile on my face. Then suddenly she held my hands, and I was shocked for a moment and looked at her. She said, her mom had instructed to walk with hands in hand while on roads. For the first time, I was holding a girl’s hand or rather the opposite, and really I don’t know how to explain the feeling; was I nervous or did I like it. I looked around to see if anyone is watching, maybe out of shyness. I was smiling, I don’t know why, maybe I was blushing. At that moment I loved her mom for those instructions.
At that age, it was not love of course, but today when I recollect those moments, all those feelings fit into only a four letter word. I do not regret that I never met her again; rather I feel lucky to have lived those moments.
I was around five years old, my childhood had just started to blossom. The images are a bit faded but as beautiful as the feelings were at that moment. My only outhouse adventure comprised of school visit and rare grocery shopping with mom, because I was a problem kid at that time, with never ending monkey business.
Concerned of my future, my parents admitted me to a play house-cum-coaching for kids. It was near my home, just a lane behind, no busy roads, most people on the way knew me, hardly a five minute walk. Though, the classes were meant for both education and play, but from the very first day I self-employed myself with only the latter one.
One fine day, the classes ended earlier. I had to go home alone, so I was happy about being independent. But, concerned of the pranks that I might do if I went alone, the teacher paired me with a girl, who lived near my house, on my way back. I had seen her before but we never had a talk.
I was wearing a t-shirt with half sleeves, and short pants that barely covered my thighs, and my new micky-mouse shoes. As universally common to boys, one side of my shirt was carelessly un-tucked and my hairs untidy. She, on the other hand, wore a beautiful lemon dress, upto her knees, matching slippers and two lemon clips to avoid her hairs from doing their freelancing business. Seeing her idealness, I limited my pranks on my way back home.
She offered me a cookie. I denied out of hesitation, as she had only one. In spite of my denial, she broke it into two and re-offered me one-half. This time I accepted it, again out of hesitation. I saw a smile running on her face creating a cute indentation, a dimple, which in turn brought a smile on my face. Then suddenly she held my hands, and I was shocked for a moment and looked at her. She said, her mom had instructed to walk with hands in hand while on roads. For the first time, I was holding a girl’s hand or rather the opposite, and really I don’t know how to explain the feeling; was I nervous or did I like it. I looked around to see if anyone is watching, maybe out of shyness. I was smiling, I don’t know why, maybe I was blushing. At that moment I loved her mom for those instructions.
At that age, it was not love of course, but today when I recollect those moments, all those feelings fit into only a four letter word. I do not regret that I never met her again; rather I feel lucky to have lived those moments.
May 28, 2013
Always be mine (Poetry)
I wish....
I be the light, you be my shadow.....
I be the breeze, you be my meadow....
I be a poem, you be my inspiration...
I be a path, you be my destination...
I be the beauty, you be my beholder...
I be a sight, you be my wonder...
I be the mirror, you be my reflection...
I be a prayer, you be my devotion...
I be a face, you be my smile...
I be a magic, you be my wile...
I be the glitter, you be my shine...
I always be yours, and you always be mine...!!!
I be the light, you be my shadow.....
I be the breeze, you be my meadow....
I be a poem, you be my inspiration...
I be a path, you be my destination...
I be the beauty, you be my beholder...
I be a sight, you be my wonder...
I be the mirror, you be my reflection...
I be a prayer, you be my devotion...
I be a face, you be my smile...
I be a magic, you be my wile...
I be the glitter, you be my shine...
I always be yours, and you always be mine...!!!
