Panache Desai's Blog

Some of you have some really awful people in your lives. They are divine beings, but they’re just awful. They are awful in the respect that you are asking them for something that they don’t have the capacity to give you. That external rejection becomes your own internal rejection. 

We don’t need to make what other people think and feel about us relevant. 

Everyone is living in their own universe. What we are is a collection of different universes. For example, when a family member says something to you and about you, more often than not, they are just talking about themselves out loud. When your spouse says something to you and about you, more often than not, they are talking about themselves. Same for your children. Everybody is talking about themselves out loud and you take it personally. Once you realize this is what’s happening, no matter what anyone says or does, it doesn’t mean anything about you. You can choose to make it about you, and in doing so, you keep looking to people for acceptance and love. This is why they are awful.

If everyone is talking about themselves out loud, then what are you saying about yourself?

Here’s what I say: Hey you, you’re amazing! You’re awesome and you don’t need to be fixed, healed, changed or improved. You are a divine infinite being. Once you realize that you are the only person the way that you are and once you experience the profound place of harmony within yourself, everyone’s opinions and beliefs become invalidated.  

Are you placing too much of an emphasis on other people’s perceptions or interpretations of you? This is why you struggle. Self-rejection is why you struggle. 

It’s time to realize that everyone is living in their own universe and talking about themselves out loud. When you ask somebody who doesn’t love themselves “how are you doing?”, they are going to give you an interpretation of their lack of self love. 

Your suffering will end when you stop looking for validation from others. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation. 

My life has become easier, more graceful, more loving, depth of companionship, depth of intimacy like never before. Here is why: When it’s your destiny, and when you are supposed to be somewhere or go through something and have the experience, the right person shows up in your life. The secret my wife Jan and I have figured out a long time ago is that we didn’t need each other to love one another, we needed to love ourselves. 

You are the source of your love. You are the source of your happiness. You. 

The purpose of relationships becomes easier once you understand this. It’s about companionship and intimacy. In my experience, when the companionship and intimacy begin to fall away, the relationship begins to dissolve. The pandemic did so many things. It showed people if they were meant to be together or it showed them that they weren’t. Relationship dynamics will shift and change however, the love that you have inside for yourself and the access you grant yourself to that love will never go away. 

Love doesn’t fit in a box. You can take two people who seemingly are from two different parts of the world and they will find love, and commonality in their relationship because it is their destiny to. And, it’s also their destiny to stay together. 

Love doesn’t look like what you think it looks like because it starts with you. The more you love you, the more somebody can show up to support you and to be there for you. You are only limited as you allow yourself to be. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation. 

What I like about my life is that I get to utilize my time in the most productive way. Once you figure out the purpose of an instrument or a tool that you own, it makes it way more efficient to use that tool; to optimize the use of it. 

Life is simply meant to be experienced. The end. 

If life is just an experience we are having, then we, as human beings, are a part of that experience. The question is who is having it? What is it that is in me, observing through my eyes, that is experiencing through my being and is here on this journey of experiencing? Not learning lessons or solving riddles, but what is it that is in me that is hearing, feeling, seeing? What part of me came back here to have this fully immersive experience? 

The answer: Who you authentically are; your spirit; your soul. 

You are in a predestined, preordained, preappointed journey and every single thing that is happening, is happening in alignment with your highest outcome. The only part of you that wants to manifest things is your incomplete ego. Your ego can’t be with the soul’s journey and therefore wants to assert some level of control over reality in the form of manifesting. 

When your ego is on your soul’s journey and when you can accept the completion and fulfillment and the truth of who you are, everything in your life takes off because you start aligning with your destiny, instead of what you think you ‘should’ have, our how you think you ‘should’ be living. 

Your destiny is the truth of your life. Wisdom is realizing that life is an experience that is spontaneous and automatically unfolds in every moment. There is no guru that is in charge of it, no healer that’s in charge of it, no mystic that’s in charge of it. Anything that you are doing to try and change or alter in your experience is your ego’s inability to accept your soul’s journey. 

It’s time to realize we are the way we are and we have to relax into embracing the truth of who we are, no matter what. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living mediation

Your life begins to give you signals that something in your reality isn’t quite working. Your life begins to prompt you to begin to look a little bit deeper. For some of you it looks like a crisis, for others of you it looks like unprecedented success. Either way, life throws you into that which is uncomfortable so that you can get to know who you are beyond the neatly defined boundaries or edges that you have come to know as yourself. 

This person who you are, this identity who you are, the things that you’ve done, the things that you feel, the thoughts that you think, where you live, how you identify are all constructs of parts of this self, this ego. Life prompts you, on varying degrees, to begin to become aware of who you are beyond this identity, this personality, this ego. 

You have been pursuing answers at the level of your ego. Fixing, healing, changing and improving is the realm or the domain of the ego. If you want to win at the “significance game”, or  the “have everything but feel empty inside” game, then by all means, continue deploying the healing, fixing, changing and improving. It will get you a better version of your ego. However, it’s not going to provide you the level of freedom you are searching for. 

It’s time to realize that no matter how much you look outside of you to justify your worth or value, sadly, it always falls short. And even though it may provide you with a temporary reprieve or a small break from the monotony of always pushing and striving to be significant, it falls short because nobody simply loves you for who you are. It’s why people build billion dollar companies and why people chase enlightenment. 

Everybody is trying to be good enough for somebody. But at some point, you have to finally be good enough for yourself. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation

Life is getting better everyday. 

Sometimes you have the tendency to see what you want to see instead of seeing the truth or you come up with an interpretation rather than being with the truth. It’s important to get to a place and to have the courage to be honest with yourself about what that truth is. 

As an example, maybe you can’t stand to be with certain members of your family or you can’t stand where you work. You need to be honest about it. You have this tendency to take out this rainbow colored brush and paint over everything. Be honest with what doesn’t resonate with you. You don’t have to continually deny how you authentically feel out of obligation or loyalty, or out of a spiritual belief that that is the thing to do. 

We are becoming aware of everything we need to be aware of inside of ourselves, or we are experiencing the depth of connection. Being in this infinite, loving light and presence that you are can be intense to the degree of which you have pushed it away. Sometimes being in the intensity of the past can also be hard. You just have to smile and breathe and not be so dramatic about everything anymore. 

When you finally come into acceptance, and stop fixing, healing, changing and improving, then your life will flow. Fixing, healing, changing and improving is resistance and it invalidates the perfection of your design. Acceptance is so necessary as it relates to being a human being because acceptance is the key that opens the door. Welcome whatever comes up into your heart and in that heart, you are free. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation. 

In our pivot into the present moment, and letting go of emotions with everything at the level of the mind, thoughts, feelings and everything in the body related to the present, the primary place where everything is still residing is in the body. 

The majority of you do not have a present moment. Your body is not a reflection of who you are in the present moment. You also don’t have a present moment life, or a present moment mind, and you don’t have a present moment relationship with your emotions. There are still parts of you that are stuck in the past. The parts of you that you have been unable to accept, or embrace. You are stuck in the past emotionally, mentally, physically, or at the level of your identity. 

The body is like a recording device, a storehouse for the unconscious mind. It’s like a hard-drive. It’s why you hear about ‘embodying’ things. We have to be things in order to embody them in order to have them. In the present moment you are just neutral and peaceful because the soul is neither for or against anything. At the level of the mind, you’re neutral. In the body you’re neutral, not holding on to anything related to anyone. There is no ego in the present. 

People who try to fix you or change you or have you sit for hours having you talk about yourself, are just wasting your time. They are fundamentally disrespecting you. They are trying to turn you into the version of who they think you should be. Anyone that tries to convince you that you need something upsets me because you are already a beautiful divine being. 

What is it you still have in your cells? How does this playout for you? It’s time to welcome whatever there is to welcome related to the past. Change is just more of the same.

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation.

As a planet of people, I feel like most of you are having a transactional relationship with God, meaning that you’ve been praying for things. You’ve been fixing, healing, changing and improving for ‘things’ in your life, or in order to get ‘things’.

You do things of a spiritual nature in order to get things in return. I think on one level, you have expectations of God or of the Universe. You pray, meditate and do your part, and in return, you hope that the universe will bestow upon you something. 

Life just doesn’t work that way.

The Divine’s relationship with you, God’s relationship with you is free of expectation. Can you imagine if God actually expected something of you? How horrible it would be waking each day under the burden of God’s expectation of you. 

So, if God isn’t expecting anything from you, then why do you  continue to expect things from God? You need to give up this transactional relationship you have with God. Your expectations become points of invalidation. Holding on to expectations creates an experience of profound suffering within you. 

You are not the problem and there is no need for prayer. There is no need to beseech a higher power for anything. The Infinite power that made you will give you what you are meant to have and what not to give you. Love what you are doing. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation. 

We are now moving to a point in our evolution where we need to be consistent in our state of being no matter who you are, or who you are with or what you are doing or what’s happening.  Recognize that you are the one that is denying yourself the experience you wish to have and that you are allowing other people, or what’s happening in the world or what’s happening in your life to do that. 

Once you realize that your happiness isn’t determined by someone else, your peace isn’t defined by another person, and your freedom isn’t inhibited by some external factor, you then understand your state of being is independent of what’s happening. 

Here’s your challenge: Be consistent in your misery.  If you are not miserable in every area of your life, and you are only miserable in certain areas, realize you have the capacity to access different states of being. It’s time for you to commit to being yourself – peaceful, joyful, loving, compassionate. The more you commit to being consistent, the more you stabilize your state. 

Right now, you might be one person in an area of your life, and another person in another area. The inconsistency is what keeps you in the struggle. Once you realize you don’t have to switch up who you are in any area of your life and just be yourself, then there’s freedom. 

It’s important to recognize that you are not being you in your life all the time. You can be awesome and everyone else can just be who they are. Be consistent in who you are. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living mediation. 

In mystical and esoteric circles, they have this romantic notion of purpose, you’re meant to go on a quest, find an undiscovered pyramid or liberate some crystal skulls. In reality, you are the medicine. You are the solution. The unfolding of your life is the how. 

We are all standing in front of the same elephant. Somebody is at the trunk, somebody has the ears, somebody is on top of the elephant, someone’s grabbing the butt cheeks or the belly, and someone is holding on to the legs. But, we are all standing around the same elephant. All of these different parts of the elephant are all the different religions and traditions, teaching, insights, saints and sages, techniques and modalities. These are all the parts, but not one thing can point to the totality of it all. 

When you have the capacity to transcend your limited individual lens, meaning, you are holding on to the elephant’s trunk assuming the trunk is the truth, then you begin to access life and engage in life from a vastly different perspective. A perspective that isn’t limited by your programming, conditioning or your past.

In that moment when you step back from the individual part that you have identified with as being real, the nature of the ego is to do so at the exclusion of all the other parts, you can see the totality of the whole – the elephant itself. 

The reason that you still struggle or have a difficult time is because you’ve latched on to one thing about you that’s the truth. You’ve latched on to your pain as the truth or your past as the truth. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation 

We are becoming aware of everything that is not love. On any given day we can latch onto anything that is happening in the world, and it begs the question: Why is what’s happening, happening in the world? 

It’s because people are in pain and they don’t know that they are love. Why does anybody do anything to another person? Because they are in pain. It’s not about belief, it’s because we keep excluding people from our hearts, especially the people we deem to be not worthy or deranged. We cast out those who are in pain. We alienate them, we isolate them, we ostracize them. And then we pray that the pain doesn’t explode in our lives. 

Every hand grenade that has had its pin pulled, eventually explodes. It is so important, especially now, to love everyone even more. Everyone. This whole human thing is pretty straight forward: We are trending more towards love everyday, and we do this not by excluding people from our hearts, but by including them in our love. Turning our backs on people is turning our backs on ourselves. 

Not loving another person is denying yourself love. Love. Love people. If we all start loving each other, we’ll stop shooting each other. 

What God is, is infinite love. I don’t believe in God, I experience God. You are here to love. 

Rest in the awareness of your breath for a living meditation.