Dear eema, 

L 'Shanah Tovah. I can hear you telling me this now. In fact, that's how I usually found out what Jewish holiday it was - by you wishing me a good one. Now I suppose I'll have to rely on Facebook. Tomorrow will be three months since you've been gone. You're beloved condo is almost empty. I'm slowly doing the emptying. I wrote this on Facebook:


Cleaning out the condo, 
Wrapping up moments in tissue paper,closing up boxes of the past.feeling you everywhere. The walls are bare now, the space is smaller than I ever realized. Without you to fill it up, what remains? If not for this great, ever expanding love I have for you, holding me tenderly since you've been gone, this empty home would be unbearable to be in. My mom, my eemailah,I love and miss you so. 

I had this photo framed for dad. It's hanging up in his room now.
The Hospice people sent me a list of things that could help me during the grieving process. I like it so I'm sharing it here in case it can help others. 


Oh, i also ate the rest of your hidden chocolate.  I haven't been able to write much since you've been gone. But, i'm supposed to be gentle with myself right now, so, I guess it's okay. You did inspire me to take a yoga teacher's training especially to help seniors. Everyone should be able to walk and be pain free while they're here. Not like your last couple of years. Those were tough ones. Maybe I can be of service to others. Every life I touch I will dedicate to you.
Year 5776 won't be the same without you. Here's hoping for a sweet one for all of us who miss you so.
And give Wayne a big hug if you see him. 


xo,annie