i sat in the bath today and thought about sticking my head under the water and taking a deep breath.

I don't want to kill myself.

I am not suicidal.

I enjoy life. See I just started watching "Cheers" on netflix instant streaming. Were I to die now, I would miss too much.

But still, I thought about it.

Sometimes I think about stuff like that. Things I don't really want to do I imagine being done by me. 

Sometimes these thoughts freak me out a bit. I worry the time will come when I am pulling a burrito out of the microwave and I just jam the fork into the outlet and there i go in a puff of smoke and refried beans.

i wonder, in that situation, what would happen to the burrito? Would the coroner eat it? I bet it is hard for coroners to eat after they first become coroners.

I worry that someone i know might be turning into a coroner right now and i am missing it.

i hope, when i die, my coroner friend does not see me naked.

that would be embarassing.