I don’t think I’ve posted this much on my blog since 2013-14. I don’t think I’ve needed to write so bone deep badly since then.

Whew. It’s been a month, hasn’t it? It’s been a year. I keep hoping it’s all a horrible fever-dream. At least November. It seems so impossible so much grief could exist in 30 days.

But, for the first time sinceWednesday, thisgriefI’m carrying in my heart feels pure. It’s not weighted down with extra stress and anxiety. You, my community,didthat.

God, what have I ever...