On the heels of President Trump publicly endorsing Roy Moore I find myself angrier than usual. The blatant disregard for human decency is shocking and is making me question whether there really is a future that heals this country.
Personally, I am struggling with forgiving those who still maintain, or only recently renounced Donald Trump (and the GOP as a whole for supporting him). I find myself holding a lot of negative feelings towards people as of late, and it all comes down to the question of what’s more important, for them to admit they are wrong, which may only happen when the country completely collapses, or for them to go on and live long happy lives in ignorance.
It is a frustrating internal dialogue to have, particularly when you make these arguments against amalgams of all trump supporters projected on to one faceless mentally created debate opponent.
Take your pick for what you want to be right about in this current administration. There are so many options. The tax bill that was just rushed through, the blatant disregard for science in concerns for global warming, even the access hollywood tapes are now being questioned (Trump is literally denying it was him despite earlier claiming it was all just locker room talk).
Anyway, I find myself very unhappy with my thoughts as of late, because the truth of the matter is I want to be right. Let me correct that because I know based on empirical evidence and current data I am right. What I mean is I want those in my life who are currently cheering for the destruction of mankind, siding with white supremacists, and defending our toddler and chief to admit they were wrong.
It makes me feel gross and petty but I want them to know just how wrong they were. I want them to feel the consequences of their decisions, to be granted visions from the God they claim to love and see how the future turns out on the current trajectory we are riding.
I want them to admit they were wrong, even though in this case it could quite literally mean life or death. I mean I just feel disgusting about it all. I know my goals should be fighting for a better world and protecting those I can but really I’m finding myself not wanting to protect those who were duped. I want them to feel the consequences of their decisions.