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"Are you trying to hurt me?" I croaked.
"I'm just trying to tell you the truth for once. Nothing held back."
"Why now?"
"Because it's only since I came back that I've come to realise that you really didn't know what I felt for you. I always thought you knew that I loved you."
"If I'd have known you wanted me, I'd have waited. Christ, I would have waited if I'd known there was something there. I wish you had been brave enough to tell me when I needed to hear it the most," I told him. "Now? Now all this is just a sad story for you to tell me that makes me cry and ache in all the wrong ways, Alex. Our time together back then is one of those moments in life that we will always regret because we didn't try, not because we tried and failed. Those kinds of stories, they're the ones that kill us from the inside out. They're the ones we'll think about until the day we die. That's what regret does. It burns under the skin. It taunts you with the possibilities you turned down, and in the end, there's nothing we can do to get rid of that. Nothing we can do at all."
"Nothing?"
"What do you want from me?"
"I don't know."
"Then nothing has changed."
"Except us. We've changed. You, you're harder, a little more broken because of me. And I'm all bitter, twisted and completely fucked up, torn between fighting for you until I make you mine or letting you live in another man's arms forever, because I know he will always make you happy."
"You can't say things like that to me."
"Why not?"
"Because everything hurts again when you do."
"Everything hurts for me no matter which way I go, Nat."
We stared at each other for a long time after that, and I had all these mixed up thoughts whizzing around in my mind, but I couldn't for the life of me figure out a way to string a coherent sentence together.
"Do you want me to go?" he eventually asked.
"It would be easier," I whispered.
Alex's knowing grin broke free, and when his eyes fell to my smile again, I knew I was done for.
"Do you want me to go?" he repeated.
"No."
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"I'm just trying to tell you the truth for once. Nothing held back."
"Why now?"
"Because it's only since I came back that I've come to realise that you really didn't know what I felt for you. I always thought you knew that I loved you."
"If I'd have known you wanted me, I'd have waited. Christ, I would have waited if I'd known there was something there. I wish you had been brave enough to tell me when I needed to hear it the most," I told him. "Now? Now all this is just a sad story for you to tell me that makes me cry and ache in all the wrong ways, Alex. Our time together back then is one of those moments in life that we will always regret because we didn't try, not because we tried and failed. Those kinds of stories, they're the ones that kill us from the inside out. They're the ones we'll think about until the day we die. That's what regret does. It burns under the skin. It taunts you with the possibilities you turned down, and in the end, there's nothing we can do to get rid of that. Nothing we can do at all."
"Nothing?"
"What do you want from me?"
"I don't know."
"Then nothing has changed."
"Except us. We've changed. You, you're harder, a little more broken because of me. And I'm all bitter, twisted and completely fucked up, torn between fighting for you until I make you mine or letting you live in another man's arms forever, because I know he will always make you happy."
"You can't say things like that to me."
"Why not?"
"Because everything hurts again when you do."
"Everything hurts for me no matter which way I go, Nat."
We stared at each other for a long time after that, and I had all these mixed up thoughts whizzing around in my mind, but I couldn't for the life of me figure out a way to string a coherent sentence together.
"Do you want me to go?" he eventually asked.
"It would be easier," I whispered.
Alex's knowing grin broke free, and when his eyes fell to my smile again, I knew I was done for.
"Do you want me to go?" he repeated.
"No."
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