I've been giving out copies to friends in the industry and I'm starting to get calls from them about the book.

All of my life... I have been on the outside of producing movies and such... being the guy in the background, trying to help others realize their dreams of sharing their work.

To be honest, I'm not used to being in the forefront of my own work but it's, my own work with hellucination. It's my life so it's different.

When talking to friends who know my life as well, as I know it, it is different. I knew I was putting myself out there with this and I will get used to it... it's just different.

I have no problem speaking to people about myself and my book. I have no problem, telling people what I know and teaching them the film industry they want to get into. I'm a decent public speaker and have no qualms about it.

I don't know what I am rambling about right now. I guess when I am on the phone with people I know who need to understand my book and what I went through. I know and understand why they do. I just really have to get ready for people I don't know, asking me the questions of my life.

It's one thing, for me to be standing in front of a crowd of people, asking me, as I give them answers about business in the movie biz. It's another to stand in front of them and tell them the reason for living. I got it, I can do it... just have to get used to it.