I am an oversensitive idiot sometimes.  I miss the point in what’s going on and don’t realize until later that what I thought was happening…wasn’t happening.  As an introvert, I can take harmless jokes as intentional mockery.  In that process, to whoever might be paying attention, I make myself look a fool.  In all honesty I am one…at times.  In other moments I’m like, really cool.    

So…I’m back on Twitter.  There is some shifty shit that happens on there, but it’s also a useful writer’s platform and frankly I missed a lot of people. 

The break did me good. I was able to put things into perspective.  I am going to manage my time a bit better. I spent some time with my manuscripts minus the obsession with hashtags and Twitter likes.

But one thing that I’ve really learned this year is this…admitting you’ve done something wrong is good for the soul.  The alternative is a dark place where you are vulnerable to the lesser side of humanity. 

All around us are the consequences of people digging their heels in, letting ego get the better of them and refusing to look at things differently.  It’s hard.  And the darker side of our nature creeps in, wanting to have a crack at others who we feel look down on us.  There’s also just downright anger. 

Anger is the midnight feed that turns gizmos into gremlins.  Sometimes we have a right to be angry.  Sometimes we are just being assholes. Understanding the difference can be a challenge.

Make no mistake…something is in the air trying to polarize us.  Trying to play on our insecurities.  Trying to isolate us from one another.  Sometimes that something is within us.  Our “inner twat” if you will.  

My lesson this year is that you should never tolerate bullshit.  Don’t be a sap.  But never give in to the side of human nature that wants to dig its heels in, despite knowing a mistake or misunderstanding has occurred, refuses to say I’m sorry and demands giving the world or whoever you wronged a big “fuck you…I’m entitled to my sanctimonious indignation…I ain’t going back on shit.”   

Very, very few people are entitled to sanctimonious indignation. 

Anyway, Merry Christmas, Blessed Yule, hope you all had a Happy Hanukkah earlier this month and Happy Holidays.    

Love

Jess