I have been sick for the last 3 or 4 days and let me tell you, there are few things in the world that infuriate me more than being sick. I hate it. It interrupts my rhythm and it interrupts my schedule and it makes life difficult for those around me - because I am out of commission and am not able to pull my own weight (and I weigh quite a bit!)

Yes, I know. It happens to everyone every now and again and it is our body's way of telling us to slow down for a bit...but that doesn't mean I have to like it. I am not like my Great Aunt who seemed to thrive on being sick all the time (in her own mind, at least) because it garnered her attention and sympathy. When I'm sick...I want to be left alone and I want to sleep...not necessarily in that order. I am a grouchy sick person because it is inconvenient for me and I am annoyed by it.

The thing that annoys me the most about it, though, is that being sick throws off my motivation. My brain tells me that I should be writing. I should be researching my Thesis. I should be grading assignments. I should be doing ANYTHING but curling up in bed and sleeping. But...I sleep. And when I'm not asleep...I can't even get myself to pick up a book or article to read. I look at the assignment that I have to grade and literally have to FORCE myself to do it, because I don't want to. I open the file with my Thesis and just stare at the words with incomprehension. I open the file with Book 2 of TIAF: Unit Zodiac...and I can't think of a thing to write...not a word.

It usually takes about a week after I recover from being sick for me to gain any kind of motivation back...and I utterly hate that. Because that is a week of wasted time that could be better spent on something else...but no...that's not the way my mind and body work in conjunction with one another.

Honestly, this is mostly me grousing about being sick...but, it's also about me being human...and hoping that by putting down some words here, maybe it will wake up and inspire my brain to come out of its illness induced dullness and write something...anything...that may possibly in some way make sense to someone out there.

Ah well...going back to grading now...

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