i feel so defeated
i don’t know what to do
no matter how hard i try
i can’t agree with their point of view

in making my life choices
they keep telling me a certain path is best
go to school. get married. buy a house.
“this is how you will keep your soul at rest”

everyone’s numbness frightens me
conformance is for what most strive
but what if resignation doesn’t suit me?
and i want to actually be alive ?

i don't want to surrender
to what they tell me is "great"
i know there is so much more
than this dulling societal fate

they're all running around like mad
thinking everything they do is so serious
how are they so good at pretending?
or is it i that am delirious?


*this is a part of my book, Only If You Let Them. (www.onlyifyouletthem.com)

thank you so much for reading, it is immensely appreciated <3

Monica Carolan