I was feeling low and irritated however nothing as such happened in my life. I had few long days at work, few things going out of hand but nothing really new or of atmost significance, nothing as such which cannot be handled.  Such events happen in life and we know, we can handle them. We all have witnessed ourselves cranky and eager to pick a fight(which is not usual behaviour for most of us) for some unknown reason. At times, we don’t  find our selves in balanced position to look at situations, yet it is part of our lives, yet we are able to manage ourselves and able to sail on.

I did not felt different this time and was taking sequence of events as same. For me, different was how situation changed this time. In such situations, our mood tend to improve as external situations change with or without effort from our side.This is how I use to think it works unitl now however this time I realized that even I can do something about it. I have read or heard about it before but now I realized that how stress works on us. How it impact our moods and how true it is when we say that it adds burden on our psychological system. Lets take an example to explain.

If we carry weight for some time, our body get used to it and when remove the weight, we realize that its more comfortable without it. The additional burden becomes part of our system. Same way stress work on us. A person under stress  for a long time will not realize the burden unless one experience stress free life. Humans have habit to get used to situations and adapt ourselves however every adaption do have some consequences. Similary a person under stress/depression will not find life any different but over the period of time, his body may develop diseases which may not common for others in same age group or it may result in change of outlook.

Let’s go back to sequence of events.

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This time I was feeling low which I believe woke me up at 5 AM. I tried to sleep again but my mind was working hard and presenting each thought before me sequentially , which later started showing up in my mind’s projector screen concurrently creating a messed up picture. It forced me to get up from my bed. Though I was not sure what should I do next? I decided to to do my morning rituals and intrestingly I was able to complete them sooner than usual. During these activities, I decided to go for a walk with music plugged in my ears. I started my walk in slow strides, which eventually changed to shorter yet faster steps. Music was playing in my ears and music changes one after another. I went to park near my home for walk, overtaking other early risers whenever I encounter them. With fast steps, I have already covered 15 laps of the track quite fast.

During the course, I realized I was able to concentrate more on music and less deflected by people and activities going on around. My pace was constant and suddently, I felt like crying and within no time, I was sulking though not full fledged . Music now does not have any relvance for me. It is playing as some insignificant radio is playing music somewhere far off. I continued my walk as I have no reason to stop. I remained in same mode for a lap and after that my mood improved. My pace slowed down a bit and now music again was able to get my attention. I changed the song and after few steps, I smiled on listening the lyrics. Surprisingly, I was feeling lighter and happier. It seems like I was under a burden and now I am relieved from it. I realized that it is step by step process and whatever stored inside me, got relieved. It seems sequence of events does not block our flow of emotions rather we ourselves block them.

I learned that it is really important to be aware of ownself, our own state of emotions and tackle them at right time. May be such situation will never arise if we keep a check on flow of our emotions. We can live a healthy life mentally, emotionally .These days people lay a lot of emphasis on how they look, hows their physical health but still diseases are on rise. May be ignoraning emotional health is behind the rise. Lack of emotional health impact our physical health. Even medical science is not aware of causes, remedies of many diseases because no diagonistic machine can detect subtle health or anamolies in sublte health. Lets  try to tune into ownself and catch our seleves before we socialise.