Rapid cycling bipolar

This bipolar is a menace, a burden, like an invisible shadow, part of me
Depression and mood swings, wired, hemmed in, not…Free
Outside influences making my world decrease, a microcosm, small
Making me feel inadequate, diminished a…fool
Hoping for a book sale, recognition, escaping this rut, hope
Trying to quell the voices, these demons, tightening the rope
These thoughts that one is useless, no bloody good
Scared to go out, into the neighbourhood
Interaction is awkward, at least most of the time
The words that erupt from my mouth, do not seem to be mine
I tend to baffle, confuse, babble on…random
Like two wolves at each other, as one, in tandem
I am only at ease when I write, like now, real
For writing seems to calm me, rational, calm…still
By Leo